Oh hun
Please dont be so hard on yourself, this happens to the best of ppl.
My 1st LO I was absolutely terrified of falling off bed ect. & she never fell, but with 2nd LO I thot I knew it all & could take some "risks", for example I never ever ever put 1st LO on my bed, even to change her bum,I was religious about it, I kept thinking someone would come to door or fone wld ring & i'd forget about her. But with 2nd LO I thot...it didn't happen 1st time, maybe i was too paranoid, so I started letting him go on bed, he could hardly move, but one day shuffled off the edge, head first, it was absolutely terrifying. I lied to my OH too. I didn't tell him about it & the next day I just had to. He had a moan. LO was totally fine.
Theres certain things to look out for with a fall, concussion, bleeding, drowsyness, blood shot eyes. I think if its any more than 3 feet or a hard surface u shld go to hosp any less it should be fine, my bed was just 3 foot.
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