I'm not as into TTC anymore

[skairdykat]

After 17mths the thrill of waiting to see if I'm PG month after month has gone.
I'm due on next wednesday and I'm just not excited with "Oooo am I or aren't I?"
Don't get me wrong I still yearn for a baby, that feeling hasn't gone but, I don't know when I see ladies on here getting excited and symptom spotting I just don't get that anymore. What's wrong with me?

Maybe next month when I start Clomid the excitment will come back, but atm I just can be arsed anymore lol.

And maybe my new nonchalant(sp?) will work wonders

 

[A&J]

You have just described how I feel about TTC to a T! There is nothing wrong with you I have been ttc for 16 months now and for the past 5 months(so 2 cycles ) I have been feeling like this. I just don't get that with symptom spotting etc either. I must admit that I was feeling really hopefully a week ago I had sooo many symptoms and the past few days since getting very faint lines but even now I just can not seem to get excited...maybe I am scared to get excited and get a fall like last time when I had an early M/C.

Really hope you get a bfp soon

 

[skairdykat]

Me too hun. At first I used to assume I was PG every month lol. But now I just assume AF will come every month. So far she has.

Good luck when you test in the morning hun

 

[scones]

skairdy thats how I felt, I had my coil removed in aug 2007 and i was so keen right up until about may and i though 'you know what i cant even be bothered to have sex now cos its not going to happen' and so we stopped discussing it and we did it once or twice last month and i got my bfp, and i truly believe it was because i wasnt actually 'trying to conceive', my body told me hmmm i feel like sex tonight and we did it and got the eggie! I never once believed that would happen but it did.

I really hope that once you have relaxed which it sounds like you have, your dream will come true xxxx

 

[xxsammyxx]

I feel exactly the same. At first i thought i was going to catch within the first 2 months like i did with DD and then i realised this was not going to happen. I used to handle the situation quite well for the first year but now i test and its BFN and i go very quiet for a few hours while trying to accept the situation. After that OH pops out at some stage and by the time he gets back i am all stressed, have a pop at him and then break down crying claiming this is never going to happen, hes a shitbag for still smoking, etc etc I coping less and less when it comes to testing. On top of all that i dont have the interest much anymore. Last AF i didnt even switch on the monitor, i know i have a basal thermometer which i said id dig out to do my temps and havent even bothered looking for it, i did 3 opk's, first 2 were positive and so BD'd once (as opposed to twice a day for at least 4 days) and never even bothered on the day after OV. The 2WW seems so long this time i cant be bothered to keep track and often have no idea what CD im on. We have been trying for 16 months (thought it was 18 months but its not) ive been off the pill though for a year before this (although i was not with OH i was in another relationship, not actively TTC but no precautions either - very on off relationship, more off than on!!!) I must admit i feel like giving up now. BD'ing has become a chore and i have lost my sex drive (not like me) Great!

 

[skairdykat]

Awww xxsammyxx have some hugs

Tbh I've not a clue what CD I'm on either.....maybe 25 or something , and I don't even care tbh lol.

 

[xxsammyxx]

Yeah i thought it was all exciting at first but now its driving me nuts! lol. I think im going to just quit putting in an effort next month (er well i have sort of done this, this month as well) I know which day i ovulate so maybe ill be aware of that but thats about it. I dont do symptom spotting as i didnt even KNOW i was PG with my first until i was 6 weeks and never felt any different at all I do sympathise with you though. Have some hugs too hun

 

[skairdykat]

Thanks babe

That's what I've been doing to, just make sure we BD around when I think I should OV and when I get OV pains and that's it.
I remember in the past silently crying myself to sleep if we didn't BD when I though we should lol. Now I don't bother cause in my mind I won't get PG anyway
I don't stmptom spot either because with both my boys I got no symptoms till around 6wks too.

 

[ejjie]

Hi Skairdy

I can totally understand how you're feeling but keep your chin up. You deserve your BFP, you will get it soon lots of love xxxx

 

[rhian85]

aww hun im not to sure of ur history in TTC as im a bit new to this bit of the forum but im sotty to hear u feel a bit low with TTC and im praying that clomid helps you next month - sending baby dust your way hun

 

[rusks]

sorry guys i really feel for you ladies that have been ttcing a long time it has many ups and downs and unfortunatly the downs for you have out wayed the ups. i really hope the trial of clomid helps though skairdy and maybe the more relaxed approach may work for you big hugs though, i do like to follow your story in the end we will all be celebrating that BFP with you all and what a party that will be xx

 

[skairdykat]

Thanks ladies, your all stars. I don't really talk about TTC much apart from on here.
I think I may get a renewed enthusiasm next month with the Clomid, I may even invest in some OPK's and magic medicine because Clomid is meant to dry up CM and as don't don't get much anyway I think I may need it lol.

 

[rusks]

Thanks ladies, your all stars. I don't really talk about TTC much apart from on here.
I think I may get a renewed enthusiasm next month with the Clomid, I may even invest in some OPK's and magic medicine because Clomid is meant to dry up CM and as don't don't get much anyway I think I may need it lol.

def recommend the magic medicine really helps with CM

 

[notty]

Hi Skairdykat
I feel exactly the same as you. I'm hitting 18 months now and I am convinced i will never be a mother. I also start Clomid next month but I'm still not sure why as everything is in fine working order with me - it's OH who has the brunt of the problems. Anyway, just wanted to say hello and keep in touch with me about how the meds work for you. You have my email - I tent not to log on here too much these days as the whole thing is getting me down.
Good luck

 

[Sugarhigh]

hi hun we were TTc for around 14 months when i had the same feelings and as soon as we stopped getting all "am i aint i" it happened, i know it's easy to say but maybe if you relax it will happen

 

[Loola]

Notty! Hiya hun! I have missed you!

Im in the same boat as you all. We are not TTC anymore, we are having a break until we get married which is 10 months away. I was not as into it a few months before we stopped TTC though. I cant be bothered to chart anymore. I still get pangs of envy when I see people getting BFPs really quickly and I do wish we were trying still but I am going with my head and not my heart. *sigh*

Good luck to all of you who have been trying for ages, I really want to see your BFPs. If its any help Sookie who has been charting and TTC for a pretty long time, got her BFP today so thats great news! Hopefully this will be the start of all the 'old timers' getting their much deserved BFPs

 

[mrs_metal]

Wow that's great news about Sookie

Loola, do you know if she's going to do a BFP post so we can all congratulate her?

Skairdykat, I really hope the clomid works, I'm sure you'll get your BFP soon

 

[Loola]

She has jut moved house in Oz so she isnt online and I think she wants to wait to get it confirmed by a Doc first. In fact I hope she doesnt mind me telling you all I just cant help myself when I get excited sometimes

 

[mrs_metal]

I can understand that, it's fantastic news

 

[rusks]

loola you are a great support to us all, i wanna give you a hug

great news about sookie