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I'm back, or here now, which ever way you look at it!
I found this forum when pregnant with my daughter who is now 4 1/2, I was then here earlier in the year when pregnant with my angel baby but both times I seemed to skip the 'trying to conceive section!
Bit about my recent history, I fell pregnant first month a year ago, we bd'd once on boxing day another was that, but I then miscarried just before 5 weeks. Due to several family and close losses (3 and a dear family pet), ttc was put on hold.
Skip forward a few months, I found out I was pregnant again at the end of July- again it was the first month of trying! Things seemed to be going well, OH was starting to get excited, I had all the same symptoms I had with my little girl but they weren't as strong , I couldn't shift the gut feeling that something wasn't right, but every pregnancy is different, bump was growing (yes bump I was in mat clothes at 5 weeks!!!)
We went to the 12 week scan, high fluid level blood tests were poor, I had cvs which confirmed Edwards syndrome - my whole world fell apart. I lost my little boy, Kayden, when I had a termination for medical reasons (tfmr) on 8th October, we had his funeral in November i am now having counselling and looking to start back at work in the new year.
I was advised to wait until I had one proper af before trying again so here I am now in the 2ww.
Another baby will never replace Kayden, but I have 'aching arm's and am desperate to be pregnant again. I should be 25 weeks this Christmas, not hugging the teddy that holds my little boys ashes.
Please wish me luck, no idea when no will be testing in Jan as my cycle is still a bit all over xx
I found this forum when pregnant with my daughter who is now 4 1/2, I was then here earlier in the year when pregnant with my angel baby but both times I seemed to skip the 'trying to conceive section!
Bit about my recent history, I fell pregnant first month a year ago, we bd'd once on boxing day another was that, but I then miscarried just before 5 weeks. Due to several family and close losses (3 and a dear family pet), ttc was put on hold.
Skip forward a few months, I found out I was pregnant again at the end of July- again it was the first month of trying! Things seemed to be going well, OH was starting to get excited, I had all the same symptoms I had with my little girl but they weren't as strong , I couldn't shift the gut feeling that something wasn't right, but every pregnancy is different, bump was growing (yes bump I was in mat clothes at 5 weeks!!!)
We went to the 12 week scan, high fluid level blood tests were poor, I had cvs which confirmed Edwards syndrome - my whole world fell apart. I lost my little boy, Kayden, when I had a termination for medical reasons (tfmr) on 8th October, we had his funeral in November i am now having counselling and looking to start back at work in the new year.
I was advised to wait until I had one proper af before trying again so here I am now in the 2ww.
Another baby will never replace Kayden, but I have 'aching arm's and am desperate to be pregnant again. I should be 25 weeks this Christmas, not hugging the teddy that holds my little boys ashes.
Please wish me luck, no idea when no will be testing in Jan as my cycle is still a bit all over xx
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And of course, nothing will replace Kayden as you said but that doesn't mean another baby couldn't bring you joy too. I will say a prayer for you.
