I'm back in this boat again

[randomgirl]

So, I've joined the pregnancy forum to speak to other ladies in the same boat as me.

An overview:

I've charted for over 3 years with regular cycles between 25 and 35 days. I've had a scan which revealed no issues. I'm 23. Fell pregnant at 19 with my now husband's baby and we were delighted, but we no sooner found out that I was pregnant when I lost the embryo in a chemical pregnancy.
Haven't been pregnant since. I've got o- blood group which apparently can cause lower quality eggs. I quit smoking last year, took vitamins and excercised and it didn't help me concieve for over six months. I enjoy smoking, so I started again a few months ago, but am looking to quit again now because I know its not exactly healthy.
We live on our own and my work is freelance, so not much stress and pressure. I laid off of TTC for a year. It's been four years that I've been TTC my first. My AF is really heavy, painful and (sorry, tmi) contains clots.
The past 2 cycles I've begun spotting 2 days before my af.

I've been really struggling to get the doctors to look into it because hubby won't do a sperm test, even though he would love a baby. He is 27.

So they won't look into it any further until he supplies a sperm test, although there is a history of endo in my family.
We are in the UK.

I'm currently 8dpo and I am not hopeful at all for anything this month.

Even worse - my best friend is currently 18 weeks pregnant with her first.

I don't grudge her her happiness, but it is kind of a downer.
All of my hubbys friends currently have 5 pregnant gf's to and two have recently had their first babies and they live far worse livestyles than me (drinking, obesity, smoking, smoking pot all while they are pregnant.)
I don't hang with them unless I can avoid it - I have my own friends which are setting up businesses etc.
But I think it makes my hubby miserable to.

But, never mind.

 

[snowbee]

Welcome Sounds like you have been through a lot already. Sorry but I think your husband is being very selfish. He needs to get the sperm test done so that you can move on and have other tests or treatment if needed.

It is always hard seeing friends and family pregnant and with babies, we were at a wedding last month and I was the only lady there with no baby and not pregnant. Feel free to rant we have all been there.

 

[randomgirl]

Oh, I'm not jealous - as I wrote, I don't grudge her.

It does just feel like a repetative circle though. I used to post on B&B, but I've switched to the pregnancy forum cause I couldn't get back into my old account there and couldn't seem to make a new one.
Received a message saying my IP address was linked to illegal activities and was then offered a link by the B&B support which sent me to buy a new IP at a seperate website!
Don't know what it was about, but the websites both seem to have the same security and I was fine signing up here.

And btw - no, i don't get upto illegal online activities lol and my hubby never uses the internet (he can barely write an email!) so I think it was just some sort of hijack pop - up con or something