I have a gorgeous son and a beautiful daughter, they will both be in full time school as from Sept and I am going through a bit of a crisis with feelings of being left behind and not needed anymore - it's so weird when your youngest starts school, I suddenly panicked the other day about having no plans for the 6 hours a day at home alone - for months I have been sooo broody for a 3rd baby BUT I'm glad now I didn't make the decision to get pregnant because I am starting to feel like maybe it would be wrong despite the broodiness. At the end of the day Im not sure what another baby would actually bring - I already have a boy and a girl, both intelligent, beautiful, wonderful children and I would like to provide better for them.
So I've made a really hard decision not to have anymore and to do the best for the 2 I have already, I am starting a college course in Sept (hopefully) and instead of dreaming about bumps and prams I am now focussing on a new career, more money, taking the kids abroad, more hobbies/activities for them. I'm still broody and sad I'll never give birth again but at the end of the day the 2 children I have are more important and they deserve as much energy and attention as possible. They just wouldn't get that if I had another