I rang the hospital today to see if I should still attend my appointment for the Gynae unit since I'd fallen pg and lost in between. Whilst on the phone the lady said you have a second appointment on December 18th with Ante Natal do you want to cancel that as well? It took me a while to work out what on earth it was for then it clicked it was for my 12 week scan. I don't know why but it's really upset me. I didn't know the date and now it's haunting me. I've worked out how far gone I would've been today. Who I'd have shown the pictures to 1st. Why don't the doctors surgery cancel these things. I'd just started to move on with my life and now I'm back thinking what if? Sorry to bring everyone down, I just feel lost again. I want my baby back.