lisey
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So I am here again for the forth time. We found out on the day of our 12 week scan that our pregnancy was infact an indentical twin pregnancy that had gone unnoticed at previous scans. It was a very unusual and rare type of twin pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage on the very day of the scan. It was the furthest we have got and I was just starting to believe that things might be ok and that we may finally get the baby we had tried so hard for for over 3 and half years.
It has been over a week since the miscarriage and 5 days since the erpc (we were advised not to let it happen naturally), I just feel so removed from myself, I go on facebook and see peoples posts and pictures and wonder what it must be like to be happy, I feel as though I haven't felt real happiness in years as ttc has destroyed me and my confidence in things working out. I don't know if I want to ttc again, my OH wants to as he says its a positive thing that we did get so far, it was the fact that it was a rare twin pregnancy that caused the miscarriage, not that my body couldn't manage it (like I have previously thought). Maybe in time I will be ready but at this point I just feel like I can never see it working out and never want to go through it again, how much can one person take.
Sorry for the ramble, I just need to get it all out as I am not really a person that speaks openly to my friends and family, I tend to hide away from everyone xx
It has been over a week since the miscarriage and 5 days since the erpc (we were advised not to let it happen naturally), I just feel so removed from myself, I go on facebook and see peoples posts and pictures and wonder what it must be like to be happy, I feel as though I haven't felt real happiness in years as ttc has destroyed me and my confidence in things working out. I don't know if I want to ttc again, my OH wants to as he says its a positive thing that we did get so far, it was the fact that it was a rare twin pregnancy that caused the miscarriage, not that my body couldn't manage it (like I have previously thought). Maybe in time I will be ready but at this point I just feel like I can never see it working out and never want to go through it again, how much can one person take.
Sorry for the ramble, I just need to get it all out as I am not really a person that speaks openly to my friends and family, I tend to hide away from everyone xx