Hello long time no post

[kaz1983]

Hi ladies hope you are all well

I haven't posted for a while for various reasons.

I had a miscarriage exactly a year ago today and am currently just over 14 weeks pregnant with minion mark 2.1. I have had two scans one at 10 weeks and one at 12 weeks and every thing is ok with them but I have such a fear that the same thing is going to happen again - everything i do everything i eat and drink makes me wonder if its harming baby. I saw a counsellor earlier this year which helped a great deal and I have asked to be re-referred.

I cried this morning with it being the one year anniversary of when we lost and then worried that I was harming my baby - please help or send virtual slaps

Thanks xx

 

[russellmuscle]

Hey Kaz

I remember you from when I was pregnant with my LO Jackson you were on here. All the Scots know which Scots are about!!

Its totally normal to cry and wonder what ifs, and also totally normal to worry for your current pregnancy.

Hopefully speaking with the counsellor will put you at ease, Im sure this pregnancy will be fine also. I ate everything, including runny eggs. All was fine.

Hope your well, wishing you a happy healthy rest of your pregnancy! Try to make the most of your pregnancy, and not dwell on everything else sweets.

xxx

 

[kaz1983]

Yep us Scots stick together

how ya doing hun?

Its fizzy juice and crap basically though I do eat veg and healthier foods I know deep down everything is fine and while I still feel extremely tired and sick it can only be a good sign whereas last time I felt normal again at 11 weeks

Im avoiding runny eggs and pate which i love both of as Im just too feart - I also had to stop playing the snare drum with the pipeband as I wasn't willing to carry it plus the fact my kilt was too tight and the harnass for the drum was digging into me

so nice to hear from you xxx

 

[russellmuscle]

Thanks love, you too.

Yeah I started off cooking the yolks, like kinda hard jelly like - then I just towards the end made the excuse to myself if they had the red stamp it was fine LOL. I ate a diet of crap honestly. Doughnuts, tangtastics were my daily things basically anything sugary, cakes the lot! If anything it was just me that go a bit bigger

As long as your balanced then you shouldnt feel guilty, its ok to crave and pig out every once in a while, just make sure your taking fruit veg and water inbetween!

Id have given the snare drum a miss though! cant be lifting that every practice and gig.

xxxx

 

[cocosherbie]

oh Kaz, I cant help, but I can relate so, so much.
Im 15 weeks in my first pg (Ive had 3 miscarriages) and I cannot stop worrying. The rational part of me thinks Im being stupid as everything this time is going so well. Ive had 4 scans already, all perfect. Plus my other losses were all much earlier and I told myself this time I would relax after 12 weeks.

Well the 12 week scan came and went and I have relaxed slightly, but I still feel myself becoming stressed over the stupidest things. The cat walked across my belly - omg, did that hurt the baby? Burning essential oils, can that cause miscarriage? Every little pain an niggle sends my brain into a frenzy that something is wrong.
And the worst part, my earlier losses have made me really terrified of scans, even though at this point Ive had more good news scans than bad.

I have a Doppler at home and since the weekend, we have started to be able to easily hear the heartbeat but now Im worried that using Doppler will hurt the baby so feel guilty every time I use it! Its insane

It doesn't help that Im not working at the moment so Im home alone a lot an things are playing on my mind. Im starting yoga now twice per week and make an effort to go for a 30 minute walk every day. That helps a little. Im going to make a conscious effort to busy myself every day to distract myself.

Sorry, Ive rattled on a bit here but just want to let you know you're not alone. Hugs xx

 

[kaz1983]

Thanks love, you too.

Yeah I started off cooking the yolks, like kinda hard jelly like - then I just towards the end made the excuse to myself if they had the red stamp it was fine LOL. I ate a diet of crap honestly. Doughnuts, tangtastics were my daily things basically anything sugary, cakes the lot! If anything it was just me that go a bit bigger

As long as your balanced then you shouldnt feel guilty, its ok to crave and pig out every once in a while, just make sure your taking fruit veg and water inbetween!

Id have given the snare drum a miss though! cant be lifting that every practice and gig.

xxxx

I think now that Im am past the one year of when we lost I am calmer I was like this at the due date though I wasn't pregnant at that stage and my brother in law saw me today at work and said I was getting bigger and he hasn't seen me in over a week so that boosted me a wee bit - I know this has came out of no girls mouth ever but I just want to be fat! lol

Its not as heavy as it looks but I wasn't taking any chances xxxx

oh Kaz, I cant help, but I can relate so, so much.
Im 15 weeks in my first pg (Ive had 3 miscarriages) and I cannot stop worrying. The rational part of me thinks Im being stupid as everything this time is going so well. Ive had 4 scans already, all perfect. Plus my other losses were all much earlier and I told myself this time I would relax after 12 weeks.

Well the 12 week scan came and went and I have relaxed slightly, but I still feel myself becoming stressed over the stupidest things. The cat walked across my belly - omg, did that hurt the baby? Burning essential oils, can that cause miscarriage? Every little pain an niggle sends my brain into a frenzy that something is wrong.
And the worst part, my earlier losses have made me really terrified of scans, even though at this point Ive had more good news scans than bad.

I have a Doppler at home and since the weekend, we have started to be able to easily hear the heartbeat but now Im worried that using Doppler will hurt the baby so feel guilty every time I use it! Its insane

It doesn't help that Im not working at the moment so Im home alone a lot an things are playing on my mind. Im starting yoga now twice per week and make an effort to go for a 30 minute walk every day. That helps a little. Im going to make a conscious effort to busy myself every day to distract myself.

Sorry, Ive rattled on a bit here but just want to let you know you're not alone. Hugs xx

Im sorry I had to laugh at the cat walking over you i had a vision i hope you are ok

My friend told me about someone selling a doppler and I refused because if i couldnt find anything id panic. I have felt like little flutters today so its reassuring me

Youve not ranted at all you get anything off your chest that you need to just not your cat Im not taking a cat in lol

I will be glad once i hear the heartbeat on the 14th then flavour scan 14th october xx

 

[russellmuscle]

Its perfectly normal to get anxious around certain dates that mean someting to us, and because we are in that state we jus go oh shit what if, making things worse as you know.

You will prob find the further you get into pregnancy the more worries will ease off. Any oregnancy is frightening but especially if you have previously lost.

Take each day as it comes and remember the fat comment when your 9 months gone and cant paint your toes or even shave... Youll get there

xxxx

 

[kaz1983]

Its perfectly normal to get anxious around certain dates that mean someting to us, and because we are in that state we jus go oh shit what if, making things worse as you know.

You will prob find the further you get into pregnancy the more worries will ease off. Any oregnancy is frightening but especially if you have previously lost.

Take each day as it comes and remember the fat comment when your 9 months gone and cant paint your toes or even shave... Youll get there

xxxx

Yeh thats what Im hoping once I feel proper movements I think I will calm down. Im still feeling sick in the mornings and if I need to eat but its when I get a fuzzy head I panic but sure it is just tiredness or the weather being hitty miss up here

Haha yeh the shaving is an experience had to get hubby to landscape my lady garden last time so trying to keep it preened so to spare him that job xxxx

 

[russellmuscle]

I think thats when I started getting reassurance. I had an early scan and from then I had a doppler, used it a couple of times at max but I relied on movements.

Perhaps as this is another pregnancy you might feel movement etc earlier?

xxx

 

[kaz1983]

I have felt fluttery type goings on so presuming thats bambinoa its more frequent if i sit with my legs too scrunched up at work under my desk or when im kneeling on the floor with Elise xxxx

 

[russellmuscle]

Flutters are always a good sign, soon you're insides will be black and blue from the kicks and punches

xxxx