heart breaking decision **UPDATED =[ **

[Tangerinedream]

My 19 year old cat is really ill so I need to take her to the vets tomorrow to put her to rest. She has been deteriorating for the past week or so now. She has a tumour in her jaw bone which there is nothing the vets can do for it. It has started to desrtoy her jaw bone and I think it is now leaving her mouth in pain. She is on pain killers for it but I dont think they are working anymore. She doesnt look like the cat I've loved for the last 19 years, her eyes look empty and she sits with her mouth gaping and her tongue lulling to one side now. She is now refusing her fave foods- ham, tuna and cheese.

God, I wish my mum was here
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I did the hardest thing Ive ever had to do today and took my Henrietta to the vet. Now the hard part is over I feel a bit better as I feel some relief in knowing that her suffering has ended. I still feel like a monster too though.

Ive requested an individual cremation and will get her ashes back in a little casket, just like one of my other cats who passed away a few years ago.

The nice thing was that when I phoned the vet this morning to make an appointment I asked if my favorite vet Ann was working. I was told by the receptionist that she was on surgery duty so wasnt doing any appointments. The receptionist must have told Ann that I was bringing her in today and what for because Ann made the effort to make sure she was the one who saw her. She has always had a soft spot for Henrietta and Im glad it was her who did the injection and nobody else. It really meant a lot.

Thank you to everybody who replied to my post- it really means a lot as it is so easy for me to talk myself into thinking Im being nasty or selfish. Ive cried a lot of tears and have many more to come, but thats just natural I guess. I hope the baby doesnt feel my pain.

Here is a picture of my beautiful cat taken in June 07

Henrietta RIP July 1988- July 2007

 

[Minxy]

It's tough but very kind decision.

19 years, wow!! What a fabulous innings, she's done so well but if she's that poorly it's her time to go. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow

 

[beanie]

Its a horrible decision hun, I have had to do it a few times now. But your cat has had a great life (19 is an amazing age). You are making the rigfht decision, and it shows what a great owner you are. Enjoy your last moments, give her lots of love.

 

[little*red]

aww hun your post just made me cry, my parents recently got my cat put down, he was 18. it was so hard as i had him since i was 4. My mum told me in his last few days he done exactly the same as your cat, refusing his fave foods and basically looking very ill. I know its hard but it will be the best thing, please take comfort in knowing that your cat has lived a very long 19 years being loved and cared for by a wonderful owner. big hugs to you hun .

 

[Tangerinedream]

Thanks ladies, i need to hear your words as dave doesnt deal with these things too well so i dont really have anybody to talk to about it. i told him he need to spend some time with her this evening and give her a special hug. I could hear him crying from upstairs. his mum is going to drive me to the vets tomorrow.

why does the best and the worst thing have to happen at the same time. Im worried the arrival of our LO will be tinged with sadness

 

[trixipaws]

u made the right decision. she doesnt sound happy. im so sorry.

 

[zebrastripes]

Well, at least she's had a long and happy length-longer than many cats. 19 is quite an age. And at least she'll be put to sleep kindly and peacefully. You're doing the right thing.

 

[jenni32]

It's horrid for you, but you are doing the kindest thing for your cat. It shows how much you care for your pet . Hope you feel ok about it all. Sure it won't marr the birth of your LO, it will be so so special! Really relate to what you say about the good and bad happening so close together.

Chin up and lots of love

 

[valentine]

Big hugs TD - that's a really rough to happen at anytime, however your wild hormones won't be helping you to deal with it just now either.

I now have two cats and would be DEVASTATED if anything happened to either of them, as would my OH - we are so attached - at the moment, they are our surrogate babies.

My cat that I grew up with was put down the day before my 18th birthday and I cried my heart out - however, it didn't spoil my actual celebrations - I know that sounds heartless, but I got all my sadness and tears out then tried to put it to the back of my head and move on so I could enjoy my birthday - hopefully you can do this too with LO's arrival. Maybe it would help to make a photo collage or a mini scrapbook or something to remember her by?

Thinking of you

Love

Valentine xxx

 

[Baileysmummy]

aww just wanted to give you a huge hug hun

 

[Gem & Leland]

you know when the time is right , she shoudlnt have to suffer anymore

loads of hugs

 

[glitzyglamgirl]

I know its heart breaking but it is the right desicion, we had our cat put down last year as she had bowel cancer and was in a lot of pain that painkillers wouldnt touch, she was 12.

Remember as she was babes, not as she is now, and know that she has had a very happy life with you

 

[Tangerinedream]

Update in original post

 

[jenna]

 

[Nicola]

You poor thing...you done what was best though, she's had a fantastic and pampered life with you and now she'll be a lot happier and healthier where she's gone too!!

 

[Urchin]

You did the right thing.

 

[Babylicious]

I'm so sorry hun

 

[Minxy]

She was a beautiful kitty.

Raise a toast to her tonight

 

[jools221181]

 

[mrs_tommo22]

Td im so sorry and i feel your pain as i love my cats dearly and would be feeling the same way.
You did the right thing letting her go, its cruel letting animals suffer even when we love them too much to go.
Il ost my beloved cat last year and it made it harder her being so young and not knowing why she died.
But im the same as you and have them cremated individually and I bury them properly.

I hope you feel better soon, buts its awful and you have done the right thing and your beloved moggy will be thanking you for the great life she has had with you.