Felt like I was losing the plot last night

[Rubys mummy]

Dont know what happened, got out of bath and just felt so overwhelmed by everything, and that everything was closing in on me....OH found me on the bed, I couldnt catch my breath and I was so so frightened..

I started bawling hysterically, big big sobs saying "I cant do this, I am going to be a terrible mum, I cant cope with a baby, I cant do this, I cant give birth-Iam too scared etc etc"

He got me to breathe deeply, and calmed me down...he said he cant believe I feel like this as I have been so positive lately..but I just felt so utterly terrified.

Trying to keep busy and not think too much today but its so surreal I hope I dont feel like this again over next few days...

I was trying to get under the duvet OH said, as I wanted to stay there and the whole thing go away, like you do with a scary monster when you are 5 years old...

Am I going mad???

 

[sarah113]

your not going mad hun, i felt like this when i was pregnant with my first, i was even saying i cant do it when i was in labour and that i wanted to go home ect ect, but after i had her i was fine, im sure you will be fine hun and you will be a great mum
take care
sarahxxx

 

You are not mad hun

I think everyone in a way feels the way you did and it's a very life changing experience which you are going through (and about to go through) and it takes some getting used to

Don't you worry hun, you'll be a great mum

 

[Becky101]

I think we all feel like that at some point Zoe. I am not normally emotional but I balled my eyes out yesterday because my OH wouldn't come swimming with me! I was even sitting there thinking what the hell am I doing???

How is the hypnotherapy going?

 

[chezzabell]

AWWW hun

ur not going mad im sure everyone feels like that at some point i did loads with my 1st it wasnt so much the labour i was worried about it was how would i cope as a mum, its a life changing experince one u will never forgot so of course ur going to be a little scared

you will be fine hun u will be a great mum and will do brilliant during ur labour

 

[Jaidy]

Zoe....that could have been me writing that post

I have my good days and my bad days, sometimes I can be SO positive and other times I feel like being swallowed up in a big black hole!!

Mine isnt so much the being a mum bit, although that is very daunting, mine is the whole labour thing as you know. But whatever we fear, we always have each other, you and me are so similar babe its unreal and if you feel like that again text me and get straight on MSN! Its an order twinny

 

[kirlykird]

You're not going mad, it's just the realisation of the big change that is coming, nothing will ever be the same again and it will be hard work but the love you will get back over the years is unbelievable

 

[Rubys mummy]

Thanks all
Today is going ok, I am very excited again today as we are checking hozzie bag, and leaving instructions with mums/neighbours etc for the big day..Iam getting caught up in OHs excitement, he is like a kid on Christmas Eve!!

Been for a long walk too, which always de stresses me, and got another long walk planned for tomorrow...

Jades, Love ya babes, thanks for everything, always and I will be there with ou in spirit, as you will be with me

Bec, I have listen to the CD a good few times now, and it has really helped, I am not as terrified about the birth as I was, I am going to visualise the whole process going on inside with each contraction and not fear the pain but understand what my body is actually doing instead...

You gals are all amazing, and it really helps being able to be honest and share my fears and thoughts so openly. Love you all xxx

 

[Jaidy]

Blubbing again! Whats the matter with me!

 

[Rubys mummy]

Its going to be an emotional few week now hunny

I have packets of tissues eveywhere, and about 10 packs in my hozzie bag

 

[Jaidy]

Yeah ive got a nice large packet in there too!!!

 

[rusks]

we are all here and doing it with you zoe c xx you'll be a fab mum no doubt at all.

 

[Becky101]

Glad it is helping zoe. I have had a few wibbles over the last few weeks, but listening to the CD defo gets me back on track. I probably haven't listened to it as much as I should but I think anything will help. Combined with a home birth I am hoping to be as relaxed as possible. But we will see!

 

[budge]

Dont know what happened, got out of bath and just felt so overwhelmed by everything, and that everything was closing in on me....OH found me on the bed, I couldnt catch my breath and I was so so frightened..

I started bawling hysterically, big big sobs saying "I cant do this, I am going to be a terrible mum, I cant cope with a baby, I cant do this, I cant give birth-Iam too scared etc etc"

He got me to breathe deeply, and calmed me down...he said he cant believe I feel like this as I have been so positive lately..but I just felt so utterly terrified.

Trying to keep busy and not think too much today but its so surreal I hope I dont feel like this again over next few days...

I was trying to get under the duvet OH said, as I wanted to stay there and the whole thing go away, like you do with a scary monster when you are 5 years old...

Am I going mad???

no you're not going mad. You're feeling this way because you have never experienced what you are going through before and its probably the biggest thing you will ever go through. So many changes and happeneing in your head and body and its hard sometimes to take stock of them. I thionk sometimes we are thinking too much about thins and then you get all panicy like you did.
You'll be fine Zoe.

 

[gingerpig]

Did anyone Animal Park the other night when they had to give the mummy marmoset a c-section to get out her baby? Seriously welling up thinking about it now, it was sooooo sad the little baby marmoset died shortly after being born I had to go in the kitchen and mess about as I was blubbing so much. Seriously like Budge said this is such an emotional time for us all and we are thinking about it too much. Plus our hormones are going crazy, so it's not like we're facing this incredible life-changing moment with a clear head - instead we got a fuzzy one stuffed with pre-labour endorphins etc hence the highs and lows. But I reckon we'll all be just great when it comes to it - as for the mothering side, look how much all of you care (can see that from your posts) and realise that's how you will be treating your babies. Lucky them!

 

[Rubys mummy]

Thanks my angels, its so lovely to be reassured I aint going mad

Had another "moment" beofre, OH caught me howling in the kitchen, poor love thought he had upset me as he was singing a silly song he had made up about the baby coming soon!!! Bless

I am s**t scared again tonight, I just cant even imagine what the next few days are going to bring or what its going to feel like etc. My head is wrecked right now

 

[gingerpig]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ((((((((((((((Zoe)))))))))))))))

None of us know what it's going to feel like, but it sounds like you have a lovely, supportive OH there! I'm nearly setting myself off again thinking about the baby marmoset....

 

[Rubys mummy]

He is so supportive, I know he is as terrified as me, but he is being so good and positive...

On a lighter note, he just had to pull me off the sofa, I was bouncing on my birth ball, when I rolled back and got wedged into my corner sofa...laughed so much I nearly wet myself

 

[gingerpig]

Fantastic! Ahhhhh the dignities of womanhood - my a**e as Jim Royle would say!

 

[Rubys mummy]

I was like a weeble, rolling round with my feet up in the air, he had to shove me by the arse into a position where he could haul me up by the arms, whilst all the time trying to control his hysterical laughter.... what a sight huh?