Happybunny
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Hello.
I just got back from a few days holiday in a cottage after I m/c at 10 weeks last week. It was good to get away from home and all the Christmas celebrations...my heart wasn't in it.
The bleeding was immense and the pain horrible for most of the week, I feel physically drained. I managed to be quite chipper for most of the hols though. My lovely little sis was there who is 17 weeks pregnant. I am truly delighted for her, especially as she has pcos and getting pregnant was no mean feat. She was so wonderfully sensitive and supportive to me. However, I still couldn't help but feel sad for myself because of my loss and I feel so guilty for being ever so slightly jealous. I felt a real pang of guilt/sadness when we went shopping in Bath and I couldn't bring myself to go to Mothercare to help her look for maternity jeans. She didn't ask and didn't expect me to at all, but I felt I should have been able to.
I really feel so unbelievably sad, but I really don't want my sister to feel bad for being pregnant. I couldn't think of a more wonderful person to be a mother. Has anybody else been in a similar situation? Does it get easier?
I am due back at work next Monday, but I don't know if I am ready to face it yet. Some people knew at work, I just can't imagine how I am going to tell them without sounding like a drama queen or making them feeling guilty for asking how the pregnancy was going.
Sorry for all my rambling on, I just don't know what else to do.
M
x
I just got back from a few days holiday in a cottage after I m/c at 10 weeks last week. It was good to get away from home and all the Christmas celebrations...my heart wasn't in it.
The bleeding was immense and the pain horrible for most of the week, I feel physically drained. I managed to be quite chipper for most of the hols though. My lovely little sis was there who is 17 weeks pregnant. I am truly delighted for her, especially as she has pcos and getting pregnant was no mean feat. She was so wonderfully sensitive and supportive to me. However, I still couldn't help but feel sad for myself because of my loss and I feel so guilty for being ever so slightly jealous. I felt a real pang of guilt/sadness when we went shopping in Bath and I couldn't bring myself to go to Mothercare to help her look for maternity jeans. She didn't ask and didn't expect me to at all, but I felt I should have been able to.
I really feel so unbelievably sad, but I really don't want my sister to feel bad for being pregnant. I couldn't think of a more wonderful person to be a mother. Has anybody else been in a similar situation? Does it get easier?
I am due back at work next Monday, but I don't know if I am ready to face it yet. Some people knew at work, I just can't imagine how I am going to tell them without sounding like a drama queen or making them feeling guilty for asking how the pregnancy was going.
Sorry for all my rambling on, I just don't know what else to do.
M
x