Feeling sad

[Andrianne]

Maybe it's just a bad day but I feel so low and so lonely I miss exOH so much but at the same time I think this is for the best

I didn't get any work done today and that's always something to make me feel awful. Hope I can do better tomorrow

A million things run in my head and every night I'm wondering if I did a mistake coming to Canada. Deep down I know it can't be a mistake but then how come I feel so empty and without energy most of the days?

I know this doesn't belong here... And most of my sadness is (amazingly) not related with not ttc or babies. I just feel sad inside, like I'm having a meaningless life

Thanks for letting me write this

xx

 

[*saulino*]

Hi

Oh hun imso sorry , everything will turn out im sure life can be so crule sometimes. You do not have a meaningless life if you ever need to chat im here . Hope your okay in the morning take care.
Katrinaxx

 

[Emma22]

ah hun sorry your feeling sad, sending you lots of

 

[bandit0000]

Hi,

I'm sorry I don't know your history, but if you have only recently split with OH & moved to Canada, you have every right to feel this way. It is normal.

I remember when I split with my ex I did not go out for 3 months & my parents were on suicide watch (although I was not suicidal, just very upset & frightened.)

Slowly but surely I picked up & realised that when things like this happen, you have to go through stages, grief, life has no meaning, anger, sorrow & eventually you come back fighting & this is even if you were the one to finish with your OH, plus you can add guilt on top as well if you did.

Give yourself time & believe me it is normal to not be bothered to do anything, your whole world has changed & you are uncertain about the future.

Do you have any family/friends you can lean on nearby?

Please believe me, although it doesn't feel like it at the moment, things will get better and in the mean time try not to be so hard on yourself.

I am so sorry you are going through this, my thoughts are with you.
Take care.

 

[Fingers crossed]

Sending you big

 

[Helen]

Aw, sorry to hear you are feeling down.

How are you settling in over there? Have you been able to make any friends yet? It's still really early days. Don't give up!

Keep that chin up. You can do this.

H

xx

 

[Peanut]

great advice bandit...

Hey Andrianne, I can't add much to all that, except I hope you're having a better day at work and feel a bit more perky today.

Pea x

 

[jenna]

 

[Andrianne]

Thank you so much for all the kind words!

Yesterday was bad too, but I called a friend and went for a walk and felt better afterwards. I'm feeling better now too

Bandi, thanks. I know what you mean about things improving, I hope they will. No guilt at all though. If i was feeling guilty about something it was continuing contact with him. It was not a proper relationship, we'd never be together and it had to end. I took the chance to come here and do my master, seemed like a nice plan when I made this decision last year, I felt like I would break away from him for good. But it's always better in theory. After a month of still talking to him while being here, I realized it wouldn't end miraculously, I had to do something about it. Now that I have I am just taking it one day at a time but do miss him a lot.

No family here, I have some friends. They've been quite busy lately though so I only went out about once a week and spent most of the evenings alone, that really got to me.

Plus it's hard, what I'm doing here as a master is hard, I'm wondering if I'm just not cut out for this type of studies. They're paying me so I want to be good at it you know? Am determined to finish it so at least I'm a little positive about this.

Sorry for rambling on. Again thank you everyone for the support, i appreciate it

xxxx

 

[*saulino*]

Hi

Hun things will get better slowly but it will!!
Wish you all the best
Katrina