feeling low

[babydust]

this feeling sucks i feel very low today but i cant cry im just so down. im fed up with bleeding and towels, and people visiting and phoning all the time and having to try and make conversation. i am regreting my decision now i wish i had waited till my baby passed away and delivered it myself i think it would have helped me emotionally to see it, i agreed to a d&c as thats what i had the past 3 times but they were much earlier losses. They asked if i agreed to have it sent to labs for testing, i agreed but they asked me just b4 they put me under and i wasnt thinking straight, but i dont know what other option there is for a 13 week baby. i just feel i have no reminder of my baby appart from the image of the scan when they found it had problems.sorry for ranting on here.

 

[Jen79]

I am sorry you are feeling like this - its only natural after what you have just been through though. I dont really know what to say except that if I were you I would have come to the same decision, if the baby wouldnt have survived anyway it may have been worse carrying on with a pregnancy that could never have a happy outcome. Time will help, I think the lab tests will at least let you know hopefully what went wrong and mean that if you have another baby they may be able to prevent the same thing happening again? You have got to remember too that your hormones are a total mess at the moment so give yourself some space and time to sort your head out. Switch the phone off if you dont want to speak to anyone, they will just want to show you they care but if speaking to them is upsetting you then ignore them - they will understand. Sorry theres no words to make things better, its a horrible thing you have been through and I hope you feel better soon x

 

[NIE]

I'm thinking of you honey.

 

[puppylove]

Im so sorry to here u r feeling so low but it is understandable after wot u have just been through, as Jen79 says ur hormones are all over the place at the mo but if u need time to urself then take it and dont answer all the calls im sure ur family and friends are just showing how they care for u but they will understand if u dont wanna talk at the mo,

puppy

 

[tracey 2]

hun have some hugs

take one day at a time and follow your emotions, we are all here for you if you need us, PM anytime

 

[babydust]

thanks for your support my little girls are helping me at the moment i dont know what i would do without them they keep my mind off it