well i feel absolutly shit about myself today. i went to a dance class this morning and couldnt do it and my sister can do everything. she is good at pole dancing, hip hop and she always looks nice with nice make up and clothes......... and there is me who does jack all and always looks a mess. i just cant be arsed anymore , i hate looking at myself i just havnt got the motivation or will power to do anything. And there is my mother trying to compete with my sister and started doing pole dancing classes as well and she wont put any effort into coming over and seeing her only grandchild. my mum can go weeks without seeing my lil ellie or phoning. great eh