feeling fed up today dont even know why :-(

[jojo3972]

just need somewhere to off load realy,this is my first 2ww since mmc in may and its a killer i tried so hard not to symptom spot but when they are in ur face its realy hard did a test yesterday 9 dpo bfn was a 20 mlu so dont know why i even did that also im coming up to what should have been my half way mark 20 weeks and i find myself looking in tri2 and i shouldnt cos it just makes it even worse ,i so want my bfp again so badly it hurts i try to be happy jo all the time and sometimes i just cant,i have been reading up on ashermans syndrome i think its called forgot now but anyways its scar tissue on ur uterus which can cause all sorts of infertilty and mcs and its got me thinking maybe i have that as i had intervention for retained placenta after i had maddison and i was ina pretty bad way lost a hel of a lot of blood but im not sure if this causes early mcs tried to search about later mcs but couldnt find nothing i was 5.5 and 8 weeks so i just dont know but this is the only thing that has happened since i had my last child i was fine b4 that just gets ya thinking dont it and a simple internal us would most probs detect it plus i have had 2 erpcs since then aswel which can also cause uterine scaring well anyways just some off loading from me hope ur all ok xx

 

[leean10]

Hun, I would be at week 28 as at today from my pregnancy at the beginning of the year. I can understand your frustration because I can't even ttc atm due to me being tested for multiple miscarriages at the end of next month.

I truly hope you test again soon and all your symptom spotting pays off xx

 

[jojo3972]

thnx leean its so hard i should of had a 6 month old aswel mind if i hadnt had mc last may i wouldnt have tried again so its no point looking at it like that i got over my first mc realy easy mostly cos i had only had bfp a few days and i started to spot and 3 scans later they said more or less blighted ovum at 5.5 weeks i hadnt got my hopes up at all i just knew from day 1 that it was going wrong but with last mc i seen the hb and got to 10 weeks with all the hopes and dreams and plans that go with it and then snatched away so cruely i realy do try i have always been a possitive person wont let things get to me but jeez it so is getting to me and with my age (39) almost 40 time is running out for me if i get my bfn this month im gonna go all out next month get sum c+ and just go for it cos i have limited ewcm worth a try init anyways thnx for reply life is the pits sometimes and gd luck with ur appointment at rmc x

 

[leean10]

Well with my mc in March, I got an early scan and saw the hb too!! 5 weeks later I go back for a scan and it had all started to come away but with very limited symptoms!! I kept asking if they maybe had it wrong but I saw the scan and there was no hb and the baby had stopped growing at 7w 3d. I was in such a mess and this last one has very nearly killed me. I have no children at all and am dying to have my own baby soon xx

 

[netty]

naw hun

i feel like this from time to time too, my baby would have been 4 months old by now! I happened to ovulate the day my baby was due too and i was so so upset when it didnt happen

feel how you need to feel darling! i hope you are ok, try not to dwell on the facts and ins and outs of the MC's and possible aftereffects

it will happen for you soon sweety

 

[jojo3972]

aww leeane it sounds almost identical to my last one hb at 6+6 and went bk at 9+5 no hb and it had only grown slightly since last scan so they said sumtime week 7 it stopped growing i had realy strong symptoms right up till the day of my scan and it was like s switch had been turned off wen i got that bad news it was so weired all that remained was my tender bbs which i still had weeks after erpc now im in 2 ww and my bbs have no tenderness at all even for af coming all i keep getting is like i have a nipple on sensation which i havnt unless am reading mr grey of course haha,aww lynette life realy is the pits aint it i realy do try not to dwell and i do gd just have the off day now n then its gonna be a killer the day imy dd comes i think i will make a day of it and maybe tale my little girl somewhere to take mind off maybe,i know they say things happen for a reason but at the minute i realy dont understand wht that reason is and ok i had a mc 22 yrs ago and if i hadnt had that mc i wouldnt have jordan and maybe not jamie either life is weired sometimes and im blessed with my children and i realy feel for you ladies who have no children and keep losing all the time its just so unfair ( xxx

 

[JJ Mum]

Hugs JoJo XXX These feelings will never go away, but will get easier once your pregnant again. I lost at 12 weeks and baby was dated at week 9 ish, and I had no idea till sudden bleeding , then scan. Like you, I did always feel and still do that the baby I lost was and is part of my new baby Devon, without the mmc he wouldn't have been born, ill always be grateful for that.

You, me and Lynette will be pregnant again very soon, hang in there