I found out yesterday that I'm having a chemical pregnancy. It's been a total whirlwind of emotions over the past 5 days, after starting to bleed a week ago, getting a BFP 5 days ago, having an early inconclusive scan, to finally finding out my blood levels indicate a failing pregnancy
Hubby and I agreed that we wouldn't tell people we were trying for a family. Somehow I managed to hide how upset I was from my Mum yesterday (God knows how). All I needed last night was a hug from hubby and a shoulder to cry on. However he felt totally different about the BFP, and failed to acknowledge it could be real until there was evidence on a scan and we were much further along. But I'm sure as fellow ladies, you know what it's like when there's a chance it could finally be your time, but something just doesn't feel right about it. I wasn't happy to just sit it out and bleed for x number of days until I either continued to get BFPs or finally got a BFN.
When he got home last night, he wasn't exactly forthcoming with the sympathy. More of an "I told you so" attitude, expecting me to pull myself together. This morning topped off with a "chin up, or your mother will know instantly that something is wrong". I finally broke down, and finally got my hug. I tried to explain that I feel dirty, that the bleeding whenever I go to the toilet is like a constant reminder of what's going on, and the worse is I don't know how much longer it's got to go. I told him I feel alone, as I only really have him to talk to about it, so I just needed him to be there and not to tell me that he was right from the start.
What I really need is a hug from my Mum, but maybe a virtual hug from the ladies on here would help xxx
Hubby and I agreed that we wouldn't tell people we were trying for a family. Somehow I managed to hide how upset I was from my Mum yesterday (God knows how). All I needed last night was a hug from hubby and a shoulder to cry on. However he felt totally different about the BFP, and failed to acknowledge it could be real until there was evidence on a scan and we were much further along. But I'm sure as fellow ladies, you know what it's like when there's a chance it could finally be your time, but something just doesn't feel right about it. I wasn't happy to just sit it out and bleed for x number of days until I either continued to get BFPs or finally got a BFN.
When he got home last night, he wasn't exactly forthcoming with the sympathy. More of an "I told you so" attitude, expecting me to pull myself together. This morning topped off with a "chin up, or your mother will know instantly that something is wrong". I finally broke down, and finally got my hug. I tried to explain that I feel dirty, that the bleeding whenever I go to the toilet is like a constant reminder of what's going on, and the worse is I don't know how much longer it's got to go. I told him I feel alone, as I only really have him to talk to about it, so I just needed him to be there and not to tell me that he was right from the start.
What I really need is a hug from my Mum, but maybe a virtual hug from the ladies on here would help xxx