Feel a bit hormonal...

[Steelgoddess]

Im feeling a bit low today...

I shouldnt, today was the first day i woke up thinking this is the first weekend i havent been so tired, or felt so sick that i have been able to do things...

None of my friends know whats happened i didnt tell anyone i was preggo, no one calls me i guess everyone is busy...

I know ill have other chances to be pregnant but why couldnt this be it?

And then what if it happens again? i wish I was back at the first one, in july I was so happy i didnt worry about losing it i was so naive...

Oh i don;t know... Back to being a couple again and being thankful for what I do have...

Must be strong...

 

[Manda&Thomas]

yes hun you must be strong i to have wondered why me why this time im young fit and healthy it shouldnt happen to me
but it did and it was bad and i will never forget it
this time i was so scared and convinced it would happen again but it hasnt and next time it wont for you and you will go on to have loads of babies
sometimes life gives us a tough hand to deal with i always think its better to get it all out of the way in one go then you can go on to enjoy your life
hope you feel better soon hun
manda xx

 

[CB23]

 

[babydust]

its very hard i know but you need to try and continue to keep positive hopefully it will be 3 rd time lucky, i know its soo frustrating and when you get your next positive just take one day at a time,

 

[Happybunny]

I don't know what to say really, I am just so in awe of how you are coping, especially without your friends. A mc is a very difficult thing to go through and even more so when noone knows you are going through it.
Like any type of grief I suppose, you end up asking why me? Why now? It just isn't fair and there is absolutely nothing we can do about it.
Things will get easier honey, maybe you could confide in one or two good friends if it would help.
You seem like a wonderful, warm hearted and caring woman; if there is any justice in the world, you will get pregnant again and have your own little one.
I wish you so much luck and happiness.
Please pm me if you ever need someone to chat too.
M
xxxxx

 

[Alfiesmummy]

Im so sorry for your loss hun.
Noone ever wants to hear that things happen for a reason, its the last thing you want and all you can think is no it hasnt happened for a reason.
All i can say is dont stop trying because one day you'll carry a beautiful healthy happy baby. Its hard hunni but it will happen and now i have my son i believe that if i hadnt lost before i wouldnt have him now. Stay strong hun

 

[katyk]

You don't have to keep strong babs, just do whatever makes you feel better even if it's crying etc. Nurture yourself and someday soon you'll bounce back a bit.

True though, nasty experiences in life do make you realise how sheltered/lucky your life was before.

Maybe we will feel lucky again (I do a bit anyway as some things have improved this year for me.)

And hopefully, probably one day it'll be our turn to give birth to healthy babies

But you know what I mean babs you don't have to be too strong, have a good cry and let your OH comfort you, maybe ring any family you might be close to, or a close friend, and meet up.

 

[Steelgoddess]

Thanks for the advice.

I think im going to stay away for a wee bit, Its hard to see everyone else get ready for scans and talking baby stuff when part of me feels like its been taken away from me like some sort of punishment.

This is NOT to say i feel any sort of negativitiy or anger towards those that are preggo I am really happy but i guess i need to take some time out.

I was planning on telling ppl my news (that I was preggo) next week as i would have been nearing 12 weeks so its dissapointing me now that i have no news to share.

Im wondering if the main part of these feelings are hormonal as I felt completly fine before my d and c on thursday???

xx

 

[katyk]

It can sometimes only hit you after the d + c, before that you could have been stressed about the op and that occupied your mind a bit.

Hope you feel a bit better soon.
You could try coming on the board but only go on the m/c board for support from us reprobates, and maybe off-topic?

 

[Squiglet]

Katyk is right... After the D&C it really hits you .....Give yourself some time to be sad...it doesn't mean you are not strong...it means you're human...

Take some time to yourself, be with your OH and enjoy being together...you need him and he needs you during this time.

These things happen, and they tend to happen to people who don't deserve them, just like you...You don't deserve this, this is unfair and you have the right to feel sad and depressed... If you feel you can't come on here because its too painful, then we all understand... we wont think any less of you... It is painful to watch others progress...

You are a wonderful and strong person... and we all think the world of you Sharne...

 

[katyk]

And I love your avatar pic, with the dorito or whatever you have there I have one to put up of me with a glass of wine at a meal out, I look all festive like you there But with a pink face from alcohol lol.

Hope you feel better soon but allow yourself to cry if you need to etc.

 

[Steelgoddess]

thanks girls, didnt bed down yesterday til 6am, woke up feeling really low as i had awful dreams but I felt determined to just relax today.

Feel loads better after plucking my eyebrows and giving myself some coats of paint on the old nails

I know i have to wait (and i will) i guess i just miss being preggy. the good thing is my tummy has re flattened out again

Yes thats a nacho in my pic, it was covered in cheese and salsa with jalepino peppers...

You girls are really helpful it helps me stay positive.

I suppose this will get me lots of time to get stuff ready for when I do come to have a baby...

Are you ladies ttc or waiting?

 

[CB23]

Funnily enough I was looking at my nails the other day thinking they're a mess and I should sort them I'm just lazing around today, reading a book and eating maltesers

I wish my tummy would flatten but as it wasn't flat to start with I think there is little chance of that

Not sure what to do about ttc really hence my thread. This baby wasn't planned but we were overjoyed, now just feel so sad that it has ended, my initial thoughts were not to try again for another year or so but in the last few days I'm thinking more and more I would like to try again as soon as possible, I know this is gonna sound so lame and shallow but I really liked the idea of a spring baby.

 

[Tiffy]

I hope this doesn't creep you out Sharne, but I dreamt of you last night. We walked through a miniture (sp?) city, but the city was on the thin tree branches of a wood, snow covered and chilly. It was beautiful, the sky was a dark, rich blue and everything glistened.

I remember conversations we had about your loss in that dream, but I also remember how alive you were. I remember distinctly how strong you were, to walk with me and speak so openly... something I could never do. I know it must sound reeeeeaally creepy that I dreamed about you, and I didn't even plan on telling you because I thought you might think I'm a nutter, but I just wanted to share it.

Do what is healthy for you. If being here right now wouldn't be good for you, then I think you should come back at a later date. We all care for you here, and we'll miss your advice and the jokes and so much more, but keep yourself safe and sound above all else.

 

[trixipaws]

 

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