***Special Thanks***
To my wonderful Mum. No words can describe how much I needed her. No words can describe how much just having her there by my side telling me I was doing so well meant to me. I could not have done this without her. She was so amazing. Every time I turned my head to look at that Angel, the love in her eyes looking back at me was all I needed to know I'd be OK. I love my Mum so much. The fact she was there for me holding it together means the absolute world to me, there is no-one else I'd have rathered be there to greet my beautiful little Princess into the world.
At 3:53am on Friday 6th September, a Princess was born, a Mother was born and a Nanny was born - 3 generations of women in one room
From that moment, a whole new world begins for us.
***Birth Story***
I went in at 9am on Fri for the first pessary. Found out I was 3cm dilated so it was a good start! They sent me home to see if it worked. At about 1pm, I started getting the contractions a bit more regular, but nothing bad at all.
3pm came, I had the 2nd pessary and almost immediately the contractions started. I had to breathe through them, they were coming about every 2-3 minutes. I was managing without any pain relief and the MW said I could go to delivery. I wanted to experience some of labour from home, so said I wanted to go home for a bit first. She said if I felt I could cope, then that's fine, but to be aware that I may only get half way home before turning back!!
Got home, contractions were minute on, minute off at this point. I found a position (all fours) leaning on my ball which helped. Everytime a contraction wore off and I went to get up, another one came. After about an hour of it, I decided it was time to go to hos!!
Got to delivery, contractions every 1-2 minutes. Evie had turned back to back again so they prepared me for a loooong labour
I had pethadine, hated it! It did NOTHING for the pain, just made me tired, TOO tired to cope with the contractions. I needed the energy to breathe through each one but the pethadine didn't allow it
Because Evie had turned back to back, the pain was terrible. I decided on an epi! It took ages to put in because I was getting contractions which felt like they were lasting about 90 seconds and having less than a minute between each one! I had to lay there, still as a statue while the anaethetist tried to put the epi in It was agony. She had to keep stopping and starting because I was getting so many contractions which seemed to be lasting a long time.
At almost 8cm dilated, I felt a huge urge to push. Like nothing I could have imagined! I told the MW I HAD to push and she said no & that I'm not ready yet. I said I needed to and couldn't stop the urge. She checked and said my waters were really bulging. She didn't break them for me though. She just said "oh if you want to push, then push" so I pushed and pushed! (I should NOT have been allowed to do this!!) Anyway, pushed for about an hour and a half, nothing
so she broke my waters for me.
By this time, I realised that there was an area that was agony - No-one could figure out what it was, but it was worse than the contractions so I didn't get much relief from the the epi it felt.
To cut a long story short(er) lol... Evie pooed inside me so I had to have a load of people in the room ready for when she was delivered. I had to have forceps because she wasn't coming out! It was horrible
I was pushing for almost 3 hours altogether, to no avail! She just did not want to come out! I was so scared, so frightened and absolutely shattered. It was pure exhaustion. I honestly thought that perhaps dying might have been kinder to my body! I could not believe that something so natural like a woman delivering her child could be so horrendous.
By the time Evie arrived, the delivery suite looked like a scene from 'Hostel'. It looked like a torture chamber! Blood seemed to be everywhere.
Once Evie was born and the resucitation team & paedetrician had checked her over, she was handed back to me. I was in such pain and such an awkward position that I couldn't even hold my baby I so desperately wanted to feed her but I couldn't. It would have been near impossible!
The doc that delivered Evie then had to rush off to another woman in delivery, so I was left with swabs hanging out of me, my legs still in stirrups, waiting for theatre for over half an hour!
A few things went wrong though;
- Evie was back to back
- Evie pooed inside me
- I was allowed to push at not quite 8cm dilated which I think caused the 3rd degree tear in my anus!
- I had to have a forceps delivery
- I had to have an episiotomy
- I had to be rushed straight to theatre (AWAKE!!) to be stitched up
I asked how many stitches I was having, & the consultant said there are too many to count.
I feel a bit traumatised. Reading this back, it doesn't even cover half of what happened!! It wasn't nice anyway, and I'm still sore now but on the mend!
**Pictures!**
Here are a few pics of me in labour;
And a few of Little Miss Evie!!
To my wonderful Mum. No words can describe how much I needed her. No words can describe how much just having her there by my side telling me I was doing so well meant to me. I could not have done this without her. She was so amazing. Every time I turned my head to look at that Angel, the love in her eyes looking back at me was all I needed to know I'd be OK. I love my Mum so much. The fact she was there for me holding it together means the absolute world to me, there is no-one else I'd have rathered be there to greet my beautiful little Princess into the world.
At 3:53am on Friday 6th September, a Princess was born, a Mother was born and a Nanny was born - 3 generations of women in one room
From that moment, a whole new world begins for us.***Birth Story***
I went in at 9am on Fri for the first pessary. Found out I was 3cm dilated so it was a good start! They sent me home to see if it worked. At about 1pm, I started getting the contractions a bit more regular, but nothing bad at all.
3pm came, I had the 2nd pessary and almost immediately the contractions started. I had to breathe through them, they were coming about every 2-3 minutes. I was managing without any pain relief and the MW said I could go to delivery. I wanted to experience some of labour from home, so said I wanted to go home for a bit first. She said if I felt I could cope, then that's fine, but to be aware that I may only get half way home before turning back!!
Got home, contractions were minute on, minute off at this point. I found a position (all fours) leaning on my ball which helped. Everytime a contraction wore off and I went to get up, another one came. After about an hour of it, I decided it was time to go to hos!!
Got to delivery, contractions every 1-2 minutes. Evie had turned back to back again so they prepared me for a loooong labour
I had pethadine, hated it! It did NOTHING for the pain, just made me tired, TOO tired to cope with the contractions. I needed the energy to breathe through each one but the pethadine didn't allow it Because Evie had turned back to back, the pain was terrible. I decided on an epi! It took ages to put in because I was getting contractions which felt like they were lasting about 90 seconds and having less than a minute between each one! I had to lay there, still as a statue while the anaethetist tried to put the epi in
It was agony. She had to keep stopping and starting because I was getting so many contractions which seemed to be lasting a long time.At almost 8cm dilated, I felt a huge urge to push. Like nothing I could have imagined! I told the MW I HAD to push and she said no & that I'm not ready yet. I said I needed to and couldn't stop the urge. She checked and said my waters were really bulging. She didn't break them for me though. She just said "oh if you want to push, then push" so I pushed and pushed! (I should NOT have been allowed to do this!!) Anyway, pushed for about an hour and a half, nothing
so she broke my waters for me.By this time, I realised that there was an area that was agony - No-one could figure out what it was, but it was worse than the contractions so I didn't get much relief from the the epi it felt.
To cut a long story short(er) lol... Evie pooed inside me so I had to have a load of people in the room ready for when she was delivered. I had to have forceps because she wasn't coming out! It was horrible
I was pushing for almost 3 hours altogether, to no avail! She just did not want to come out! I was so scared, so frightened and absolutely shattered. It was pure exhaustion. I honestly thought that perhaps dying might have been kinder to my body! I could not believe that something so natural like a woman delivering her child could be so horrendous.
By the time Evie arrived, the delivery suite looked like a scene from 'Hostel'. It looked like a torture chamber! Blood seemed to be everywhere.
Once Evie was born and the resucitation team & paedetrician had checked her over, she was handed back to me. I was in such pain and such an awkward position that I couldn't even hold my baby
I so desperately wanted to feed her but I couldn't. It would have been near impossible!The doc that delivered Evie then had to rush off to another woman in delivery, so I was left with swabs hanging out of me, my legs still in stirrups, waiting for theatre for over half an hour!
A few things went wrong though;
- Evie was back to back
- Evie pooed inside me
- I was allowed to push at not quite 8cm dilated which I think caused the 3rd degree tear in my anus!
- I had to have a forceps delivery
- I had to have an episiotomy
- I had to be rushed straight to theatre (AWAKE!!) to be stitched up
I asked how many stitches I was having, & the consultant said there are too many to count.
I feel a bit traumatised. Reading this back, it doesn't even cover half of what happened!! It wasn't nice anyway, and I'm still sore now but on the mend!
**Pictures!**
Here are a few pics of me in labour;
And a few of Little Miss Evie!!
Can't beleive how gorgeous Evie is! It sounds like a really traumatic labour, you were so brave and you did fantastic, you should be proud of yourself. Hope your enjoying being a Mummy! Miss seeing you around in tri3 though! 
