Hi all,
Sorry to be a grump but i am really struggling at the moment and don't feel like i have anyone to talk too who will understand.
Firstly i am 22 + 1 and still can't feel my baby move. I have really tried concetrating but can't. I have a doppler so i know he is ok. But i am getting really upset with people asking me if he is kicking alot.
Secondly i went away to Paris with my mum ans sis last weekend. It was fun but really depressed me. They spent ages shopping in posh designer shops and my sis bought some Jimmy Choos for about 500 quid! I only spent 60 the whole time i was there as saving for baby. But it made me think is it going to be like this forever now. Like my life is hold as baby comes first for everything. I can't even go and be frivolous onxce in a while. And even if i did buy some nice clothes or shoes i will never get to go out and wear them. I kind iof feel like my life has kind of stopped. if that makes sense.
I don;t feel like a person anymore just a baby maker. I feel really miserabkle. I have so much to sort and organise. Working out mine and DP's finances. What we need for the bnaby. Maternity leave. What i am doing after work etc. And all while i constanly feel sore, aching and tired. I just want a break from being pregnant. I want to be normal again for a week or so. Go out with my friends who i never see. Have a drink or two and stay out late.
And also i am getting really upset about work. I hate it loads i really dislike my job. But the money is good considering how 'easy' it generally is. But it stresses me out and i really can't wait to finsh. But because of how skint we are i have to work as late as possible to save up for the baby arrives. Aswell as all the baby stuff we need to get a car before June.
I just feel like a mess and want to run away from it all.
Sorry i just dont know who to talk too.
Lau & Peanut
22 weeks and 1 day
xx
Sorry to be a grump but i am really struggling at the moment and don't feel like i have anyone to talk too who will understand.
Firstly i am 22 + 1 and still can't feel my baby move. I have really tried concetrating but can't. I have a doppler so i know he is ok. But i am getting really upset with people asking me if he is kicking alot.
Secondly i went away to Paris with my mum ans sis last weekend. It was fun but really depressed me. They spent ages shopping in posh designer shops and my sis bought some Jimmy Choos for about 500 quid! I only spent 60 the whole time i was there as saving for baby. But it made me think is it going to be like this forever now. Like my life is hold as baby comes first for everything. I can't even go and be frivolous onxce in a while. And even if i did buy some nice clothes or shoes i will never get to go out and wear them. I kind iof feel like my life has kind of stopped. if that makes sense.
I don;t feel like a person anymore just a baby maker. I feel really miserabkle. I have so much to sort and organise. Working out mine and DP's finances. What we need for the bnaby. Maternity leave. What i am doing after work etc. And all while i constanly feel sore, aching and tired. I just want a break from being pregnant. I want to be normal again for a week or so. Go out with my friends who i never see. Have a drink or two and stay out late.
And also i am getting really upset about work. I hate it loads i really dislike my job. But the money is good considering how 'easy' it generally is. But it stresses me out and i really can't wait to finsh. But because of how skint we are i have to work as late as possible to save up for the baby arrives. Aswell as all the baby stuff we need to get a car before June.
I just feel like a mess and want to run away from it all.
Sorry i just dont know who to talk too.
Lau & Peanut
22 weeks and 1 day
xx