I had a miscarriage in march 2011 at 19 weeks i went into premature labour so i suppose it isnt a miss carraige i had to have an opartion on the autopsy they found she had a whole in her heart and as she was growing the whole got bigger.
Its been over a year and i still cant get passed it ive had miscarrages before but no matter what happens i still cant get over it i try and speak to my partner but its something we dont really speak about it its just pushed aside.
Ive been put on anti depressents but i still feel that what is the point in carrying on i put on this face to everyone that everything is ok when it isnt.
i want to not be like this everytime i find someone is pregnant my heat bleeds and i thought after a year that everything would be abit better but no i still feel worthless and feel like im loosing the man i adore and love the most in this world
Its been over a year and i still cant get passed it ive had miscarrages before but no matter what happens i still cant get over it i try and speak to my partner but its something we dont really speak about it its just pushed aside.
Ive been put on anti depressents but i still feel that what is the point in carrying on i put on this face to everyone that everything is ok when it isnt.
i want to not be like this everytime i find someone is pregnant my heat bleeds and i thought after a year that everything would be abit better but no i still feel worthless and feel like im loosing the man i adore and love the most in this world