I lost my first baby last june at 22 weeks. Became pregnant in September for the second time. I told myself they wouldnt let it happen again, or would do everything they could to save my baby this time. After having a cervical length scan at 16 weeks, my consultant told me i was at no more risk of losing this baby than any other "normal" pregnant woman. At 19+3 after bleeding, they discovered my cervix had completely opened, and said that i would have a miscarriage soon. 24 hours passed and nothing happened, i was in hospital, no pain no more bleeding. I could feel my baby kicking and moving, and just thought how cruel it was to be told that, but still be able to feel him move. The next day the consultant i saw at the scan said they could try and put an emergency stitch in to close my cervix, it didnt work. But i could still feel him moving so i stayed positive, and kept my bed at an angle to take pressure off my cervix. A few days later i knew it was over. I hadnt felt him move all day. I got up to go toilet and i started bleeding quite heavily, i started having contractions, and my waters went. But then the contractions stopped. this was about 11pm. over night my temperature started to go up. Turns out i went sceptic. I had my little boy at 9.50 the next morning. But then had to go down for an emergency D&C because they couldnt deliver the placenta. I lost 2L of blood during the D&C, and nearly had to have a blood transfusion, thankfully i didnt have to have that done. Eventually we got time to spend with our little boy after a 3 hour operation. With everything thats happened i just dont know how i feel. im devastated of course. but i still wasnt over losing my first baby, and now this has happened. the only thing that was getting me through losing faye was being pregnant again. I just feel like me, my family and most of all my two babies have been totally let down by the doctors who told me it would all be ok.