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[fynemum]

Sorry ladies, Normally I try to stay up beat and positive, but lately I have become worried about my baby.
2 weeks ago i had another urine/ blood thing..going on Thursday for tests on bladder etc. And well i am terrified they are going to tell me my baby has stopped growing or something.... not even in that department...

I keep getting told I am not very big,I don't think my bump is but i have put on weight...EVERYWHERE, bum is the size of a house now...eating rubbish all the time too to cheer me up...Not normally like me either...

Sorry just going on a bit.. and scared....tearful too..

I haven't noticed much movement,At least nothing i can say is definitely baby, sometimes i think i am kidding myself and its just gas or body function stuff...OH feels my tummy and thinks there's movement, but i don't want to tell him how i feel...i just go along with it. I don't want to worry or upset him either....he thinks when i breath in it's a kick..oh dear!

Am scared to go to the MW in case my Dreams are shattered again.... but i just don't know anymore. I do feel something is not right. My last appointment Scan was at 14 weeks back in May 4/5th.. and My next MW appointment(not scan, don't have another) is July 17th... I keep saying i am just paranoid..But really i don't know if i am...I am normally so sensible I have thought about a doppler too, but ? ? Sh**ing myself about if there's nothing...

Sorry for the ......cry... just had to tell someone how i REALLY feel just now. And well this feeling just aint going away.....I keep hoping for a bigger bump and obvious movements..then i will be able to settle down and enjoy this pregnancy, I hope i get that soon..not sure how i'd cope if things went wrong at this stage...Sorry if I have upset anyone here. xx
Lv to all mums and bumps, Yvonne xx

 

Yvonne,

I could drive over your way with my doppler tomorrow morning if you want one in a hurry? I'm sure I could find the shopping centre and hang around outside mothercare, clutching a doppler

Seriously, young lady - you ARE usually the sensible one, on here, reassuring us all, so now it's your turn to feel a bit wobbly - you're entitled to, now and again! Your baby is so precious, that of course you're worried and couldn't bear it if anything was wrong. Another thing - you were the one who told the rest of us to demand a scan in 1st Tri, if we were worried. Well, you might be in 2nd tri, but you are still worried! You should 'phone up the ultrasound dept, explain your past history and concerns re. the bay's movement and ask for a scan/to hear the heartbeat.

Go on! Get on that 'phone first thing in the morning. Who cares if you feel silly, if it will put your mind at rest? I know, you've probably convinced yourself so well that something is wrong that you don't want to find out...deep breath, you need to tell MW or 'phone hospital about your worries. But I really will come over with my doppler for you to borrow if you want?

Take care.

xxx

 

[fynemum]

Wendy,
Thank you for your reply, truth is I am scared Sh**less in case something is wrong, and i don't get a heart beat.... I did call EPU 2 weeks ago and told them about the blood/urine but they wouldn't entertain me at all. which i understand as it IS just pre 12 weeks... They put me through to a community midwife, who seemed so un interested in what i was saying I didn't feel any better..worse in fact... She told me if the pains got worse or i started bleeding i was to go to wishshaw... They didn't..and i didn't go. But i still feel somethings wrong, I hope if i pretend that all's OK then it will be, oh I don't bleedin know what i want... Answers or ignorance..... But it aint bliss..

Wendy I HAVE to work tomorrow, unfortunately.I won't finish until 3;30 But If your up for meeting at some point soon, that would be great, however, i am worried how you might be too if somethings wrong with me, will you be able to cope too? Am i being selfish asking you to do this for me?

PM me if thats ok?
What do you think? Where are you again? I have a car.... I can come to you if its easier, or you to me what ever you prefer... choose... after you think about it.... Thank you Wendy for you very very kind offer. Lv Yvonne xx

 

[fothers]

sending you hugs yvonne

Is there anyway you could afford a private 20week scan- not even a 3d one just a normal one? Maybe if they weren't too expensive that would put your mind at rest

 

[fynemum]

Thank you Lisa,
That might be a route I end up taking, if i can build up enough nerve thank you for the hugs too. lv Yvonne xx

 

[frangelle]

Oh Yvonne
This is so not like you hun, could you not see your midwife and get her to check for a heartbeat, and then you will be able to hear if baby is moving about or not? I know you say you don't want to go, but you may be worrying all over nothing.

Who said your bump is not big? People in themedical profession or just friends/ family?

I'd defo book to see your midwife hun, it will put your mind at rest.

Hope you feel better soon.

xxx

 

Yvonne,

I've pm'd you.

 

[valentine]

Thinking of you Yvonne and understand how you feel.

Please let us know how you get on today girls - and how kind of Wendy to offer to do that for you.

Valentine xxx

 

[laetitia85]

i am just as worried as you. but i keep telling myself that things will be fine. i haven't had any bleeding since the beginning of my pregnancy so i guess that's a good thing however i am still paranoid about missed miscarriages and 'baby stopped growing' etc. but i just try not to think about it. my next scan is on july 24th, i can't wait.

 

[frangelle]

i am just as worried as you. but i keep telling myself that things will be fine. i haven't had any bleeding since the beginning of my pregnancy so i guess that's a good thing however i am still paranoid about missed miscarriages and 'baby stopped growing' etc. but i just try not to think about it. my next scan is on july 24th, i can't wait.

Sorry to temporarily hijack Yvonne!!
Hi Laetitia, I got my scan through today, its on 4th July (Kierans birthday!!) I am soooo excited!!!

 

[Snuggle]

Yvonne, I agree that Scotlands care is rubbish (I'm from Glasgow but live in England). That is very good of WendyWandy to meet up with you and I hope the doppler puts your mind at rest. If you're unable to find heartbeat please remember that its not always easy to find and doesnt necessarily mean there's something wrong. I understand how you're feeling, I have had 2 private scans already because I worry so much. I have another one on Saturday but its a 4D scan

I hope everything works out for you.

Love Jools xx

 

[laetitia85]

i am just as worried as you. but i keep telling myself that things will be fine. i haven't had any bleeding since the beginning of my pregnancy so i guess that's a good thing however i am still paranoid about missed miscarriages and 'baby stopped growing' etc. but i just try not to think about it. my next scan is on july 24th, i can't wait.

Sorry to temporarily hijack Yvonne!!
Hi Laetitia, I got my scan through today, its on 4th July (Kierans birthday!!) I am soooo excited!!!

wooouhouuuu!!! something tells me ur having a girl, but i haven't even seen ur bump!! i bet u can't wait to find out

 

[frangelle]

i am just as worried as you. but i keep telling myself that things will be fine. i haven't had any bleeding since the beginning of my pregnancy so i guess that's a good thing however i am still paranoid about missed miscarriages and 'baby stopped growing' etc. but i just try not to think about it. my next scan is on july 24th, i can't wait.

Sorry to temporarily hijack Yvonne!!
Hi Laetitia, I got my scan through today, its on 4th July (Kierans birthday!!) I am soooo excited!!!

wooouhouuuu!!! something tells me ur having a girl, but i haven't even seen ur bump!! i bet u can't wait to find out

I reckon it's a girl, I've been saying that all the way through!!!

 

[fynemum]

thank you all for the kind words and support.

Special thanks to Wendy to for her kind kind offer.
We will meet up at some point but we couldn't make it today.
I have been working until 3;30, then had to go bed when i got home, I haven't been able to sleep and was shattered.

I have made her a promise that i WILL call my MW at 9 am tomorrow and see what she says... If i don't get reassurance/answers from her wendy has given me two phone numbers for semi-local private scan centers. She has made me realize that I do need to know the truth, even if ...as i fear... my baby has died again..then i need to know and do something about it. I can't go on like this.
I shall log on again tomorrow night and update you all on my progress.

Thank you again. and good luck/ enjoy your 4D scan ladies...happy birthday too for the little lad, sorry forgot his name.

Lv Yvonne xx

 

[Snuggle]

Good luck hunny

 

[alfie]

Good luck

 

[fynemum]

Called the Midwife several times today.... and never got an answer. Eventually I left a voice mail message, Told her i was very concerned and asked her to call me back. Never got a call

I did inform them that i had been given the day off tomorrow, so i will give her the benefit of the doubt and think that she will contact me tomorrow for that very reason.... and thats why no contact today

That being said, I will still call her again tomorrow... and if no answer again. then i shall book a private scan... made my mind up.. going to face facts now.

Thank you all for the lovely PM messages and the support. I will keep you up to date.. no matter what.

Lv Yvonne xx

 

[fothers]

good luck today- hope she rings you back

 

[fynemum]

Well I spent all morning waiting for a return call from the MW... NOTHING....
I called a further twice in the afternoon and got answer machine AGAIN

My mum was in with me today. :comfort2 and well we decided to go shopping.... the only doppler i could get was a summer one from Argos..... and it is sh*t....:thud :lmao I have got to laugh or i'll cry.
I tried to get a heartbeat and well i can't get anything but my own

Anyhoo... Am trying to stay cool as i have my renal appointment at monklands Hospital tomorrow.
THEY might be Scanning my bladder tomorrow... and well mother dear wan ts to come too. She thinks if i ask THEM they might scan baby and tell me if everything is ok...I think they might too. Fingers crossed and well if i do burst into tears there.... then they would be really rotten not to deal with my concerns here too? yes?

So i am hanging in there for one more day. Then i Will know for sure. Also My partner agree's that we need to change Midwife. I am going to see my GP when i get my answers, Complain and if all is well, change to a glasgow team.... OK it's further to travel, but hey!! who cares, better to travel and get answers than to be ignored.
If this was happening to anyone else i wouldn't believe it.... Standard of care is soooo bad compared to when i had the boys 17 &14 years ago. What has happened to the NHS?

Such a saga....:shrug but answers tomorrow for sure.

Thank you all for the support.
Lv Yvonne xx groan

 

[valentine]

Good luck Yvonne - I am certain everything will be fine, but I understand how you feel. Please let us know how you get on.

Valentine xxx