Completly at wits end!!

[flaxen]

I have seriously had enough, Im at my wits end and just wish it was all over!!

Ive got obstetric cholestasis but they dont want to give me any meds for it unless it gets any worse, Im constantly scratching 24/7 soo much I have made myself bleed, none of the creams, lotions, piriton or bandages I have been given have made any difference at all, and for the last week I have had no sleep at all, I dont even bother going to bed anymore as there is no point ( I dont know how I am still standing- have lost lots of weight, you can feel all my ribs through t shirt, sweatshirt and padded body warmer ).

I keep getting told by the midwives and doctors at the hospital that I have to give the creams chance to work- Ive tried for 2 weeks and they dont work, how demented do I have to be before anyone will listen, but still have to go through the ordeal every week of having bloods taken.

They now think Im a loony and want me to see a councellor because I told the midwife that it was inhumane and cruel to keep leaving me like this and if I was an animal I would probably get put down, I sure as hell wouldnt put any animal through what Im going through and Im a vet nurse and they are concerned that I wont want baby when she comes, well Im sorry but she is putting me through hell so can you blame me.

I really cant face anymore!!!

 

[Sleepy sue]

Oh Hun, it sounds horrific what your going through. Can't you go to an out of hours or the hospital they may prescribe something different.
Your lo will be worth it in the end xx

 

[Lilelephant]

Aw Hun how ridiculous they aren't taking it serious I would refuse to leave until they did something x

 

[suzzi]

have you tried bicarbonate of soda in your bath water x x im sure its supposed to help with itching x x x

 

[Verity2011]

Awww I'm so sorry, I don't really have any advice other than to send hugs. xxxxx

 

[flaxen]

Out of hours wont do anything as already under treatment for it and just told me it was midwife department, Im not allowed to put soaps etc or anything else on my skin and even having a shower with minimal pressure is extremily painful as my legs and arms are red raw, I cant even cross my legs or let them touch anything they are soo painfull, I am one massive bruise and will probably end up scaring my skin ( really not good when getting married in may in a strapless dress ).

I have an appointment tomorrow with the consultant but dont know what it is going to achieve.

Im soo miserable and feel really crap/ ill ( not helped by no sleep ) and am really uncomfortable, am getting bh all the time and for the last 2 days my little bump has been rock solid ( fiance noticed too when he tried to give me a hug ) and feel pressure - midwife said last week that she was starting to engage?

There is only soo much tv I can watch and as fiance works nights most of the time, I am going out to my stables ( 30s walk out the back door) and sit leaning against my colt in his stable ( very chilled out chap and sleeps lying down) and just talk to him and he lies there with his head and neck wrapped round me and listens, ( I love him very much ), I tend to do this for a couple of hours a night ( fiance didnt even noticed Id gone outside at 2am this morning as he said if I wouldnt go upstairs then he was staying downstairs with me ).