Cant stop crying

[BabyWestwood]

I feel so sad

So those who know me on here know that me and my OH lost our baby a few months back. Since then I have just felt like im going to lose everything thats ever been good in my life. Ive been a control freak and even get terrified the thought of my OH going out wiv his friends.

Weve been arguing so much l8ly and I just cannot control it. I feel like I start the arguments sometimes so after I can have extra cuddles to make me feel loved.

Well anyway last night my OH announced that he doesnt want to try 4 another baby for another couple of years, now I feel even more rubbish thinking that if my baby hadnt had died I would be a mother again which is what I am craving for, then he also dropped the bombshell that he doesnt think his happy anymore, he loves me so much wants us 2 try and work things out but cant see the good in me like he use to I just cant stop crying!!!

His mum is an evil moo and use 2 plot against us and even tried getting out son put in a care home by making stupid allegations that we was neglecting him (his our world, our little blessing) so we moved away and didnt tell his side of the family where we were living and havnt been in contact since, now all of a sudden his making me go visit with him this weekend and im terrified that will make me feel so unwelcome or get involved with our life to interfere again!!

Please some1 reply, I feel so lonely xxxx

 

[netty]

awww hunny i am so sorrry youfeel this way i really am, you should come join us in the MC forum sometime, we all feel the same.

I am sorry your OH has put the brake on TTC, i know that all i want after my MC is to be pregnant again and i cant imagine how you must feel having to wait. PM me any time if you need a rant sweety xxxx

 

[BabyWestwood]

Thank u hunni, it really means alot. I feel like ive gone mad, I still stroke my tummy of a night time and pray to feel my baby kick, wat baby??? there isnt 1 there!!! xxxxx

 

[netty]

yeah i pat my belly all the time, i was tri 2 when i miscarried aswell i know how you feel hunny, i really do and it is so so hard to accept your bubs is gone maybe your OH will come round after a while

 

[ZMD]

So sorry your feeling the way you are Hun were all here for you if you need us xx

 

[AyeshaD]

I totally feel your pain, what i would say take a break... relax and put your mind on erase. enjoy life with your LO and make sure you@'ve fun and you'll be pregnant in no time.. i know its hard and next time you'll make it.. Good luck