Can't shake the feeling somethings wong...

[LuW]

While we haven't been trying very long at all, I can't help but actually being scared of getting that BFP.

We know I can get pregnant but after Billie, I've got this constant fear that theres something wrong with me meaning I can't carry to term.

I've been to the doctors and have a few tests, nothings wrong physically but theres was nothing wrong with my boy either but he still MC'd.

I could be stressing over nothing but I really can't shake the feeling something might be wrong. Does anyone else get like this??


LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

I think everyone feels like that hunnie. Anxiety is like a vicious circle, anxiety makes you worry more, which makes you worry more.
Look after yourself, eat well and be healthy, that's the best thing you can do.
Mcs are more common than you would think but fortunately most go on to have healthy lo's.
Keep the faith xx

 

[LuW]

Thanks hun!

I don't think it's helping that we have a deadline if you will. If we haven't managed it before work drags him away then I might not get a chance because he pure and simple might not come home again. Then I've got in my head if we do and I loose the baby then how on earth do I tell a man who has a gun in his care 12 hours a day and has a group of men to protect that he wont be able to see his baba.

Urgh Stupid pissing army. If they'd let him do what he was supposed to he'd be home and time scales wouldn't matter =[[


LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

Thats difficult. Pressure doesn't help with ttc, take my word for it.
How long is hubby away for? xx

 

[LuW]

6months hopefully. Not in the best of areas, typically the decent men get ent to the worst areas while the knobs (such as my wonderful ex) get sent to a pissing holiday camp. So mad at them for it all.

LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

Would you consider waiting til he gets back? xx

 

[LuW]

If he gets back =[

I'm not a very think good of the future kind of person....(if you hadn't guessed!) I'd rather think the worst, then if something else happens it's brilliant news.

The original plan was to wait until he came home. Until my fool of a brother told me exactly what the current death tolls are in the area hes going. Kind of changed my mind a little.

LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

Be positive, he'll be back xx

 

[LuW]

Looks like we will be forced to wait =[

found out today, he's being sent on a different course pretty much every week until he leaves, most of the time they leave the courses on saturday and join courses on sunday lunchtimes.

Yeh... We have pretty much no hope. Slim chance, but nothing like what it was=[


LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

Sorry to hear that hunnie x

 

[LuW]

thanks for this hun. Means a lot that I can just rant a little on here.

Think I'm feeling it more because the witch made her appearance today so feeling pretty rough to start with=[

LuX

 

[cosmicgirl]

The witch makes everything seem worse doesn't it, youll feel brighter once she's gone xxx

 

[LuW]

Definately!

Haven't been ignoring you by the way! Had my brothers party to deal with, Mum would let him go paintballing but not have them round after - So we had them and still have him and two of his friends here...... I think if I hear 'Headshot!' one more time I'm going to throw the stupid thing out the window!!


LuX