Broke down

[abbieklh]

its been just over a month since i lost my little angel at 8 weeks. How is it that something that small can make such a big impact to your life?
When it happened i didnt feel anything, i was numb to the whole situation but i dont think it really sunk in. today i was dozing off in OH's arms when i thought i would have been 12 weeks friday and probably would have a scan sometime this week, then i just cried.
Ive talked to others who have also said it takes something so small like a scan picture or remembering a date to really come to terms with the loss. Now until i get pregnant every week is going to go by and im going to think i would be 13 weeks or 14 up until my due date (january 20th). Im a worrier too so when i get pregnant again all i will be thinking is what if it happens again?
Sorry for the long and depressing rant, just feeling a bit sorry for myself (think 1st af since the MC is on its way!)
If anyones also feeling a bit down feel free to post or message me!
I hope you all get a super sticky BFP!

 

[EllieC]

oh hun! so sorry for your loss. you have every right to feel the way you do, all the hopes and dreams that you have for them they truly do have a massive impact from the start. dont apologise (says she who always does!) rant away its what this place is for and we are always happy to listen. sending you massive hugs

 

[Sparkl3ymel]

hi Abbie

We too lost out little beany just over a month ago and this last cycle has been particularly rough

I know what you mean by constantly thinking about where you would have been if the mc hadnt have happened.

I was numb about it all until we went away and then my OH started ranting and raving about how he couldnt get the tent up and that was it!!! I cried for half an hour in the middle of a campsite sat in the car with loads ov kids walking past staring at me, totally inconsolable. I must have looked like a loon

Just take time to grieve and everyone is different when we do. You will never forget but i have to believe that it gets easier in time x x x

 

[Corrinne37]

So sorry for your loss perfectly normal to feel the way you are so dont be hard on yourself.
And yes it will get easier, but there is time as every one is different.
Good luck. xx

 

[Butterflykisses]

So sorry for your loss hun. It's perfectly normal to feel the way you do. It does get easier though never forgotten. Take care. xx

 

[abbieklh]

Thank you, i really just want the witch to show up now so i can get back on track!!!

 

[cupcake77]

its normal honey to feel this way i had a mc on may 7th was devestated wasnt planned but we were so excited our baby wouldve been due at christmas and i lost my mum on new yrs eve almost two yrs ago so it all seemed perfect our special baby to make such a sad time so happy once again so when i mc i couldnt believe it. it does get easier honey and in the end you will forget the weeks. were trying again and i wont give up untill we have our little one its hard without my mums surport but ive got to carry on for her and be happy xx dont give up hope honeybee and keep smiling thinking of you xxxx

 

[sammi7]

i'm really sorry for your loss. I had a mc on may 7th and i really struggled with it. Nothing anyone said made me feel better but trust me hun, you will feel better soon. There is still some days when i sit alone and cry also thinking 'this should have been my 12 week scan or other related things' so it is perfectly normal to feel like that too. even looking at my scan picture is so upsetting. there is one thing i've learned from this awful time is to not give up, take care hun xx

 

[dyscochick]

I had my mmc last week at 11 weeks and still feel quite numb. it hits me when I least expect it sometimes, had the worst time concentrating at work yesterday sat next to a girl who was 7 months, completely by chance/accident (noone at work knows except the boss). Thinking of you sweetheart, hope you have a good OH and friends around you. None of my friends or family have been there but they have been so supportive xxx