i only fed my 1st for the first feed he was just too little to suckle and he had to have special teats, then my 2nd i only fed for 2 weeks i hated it, i wouldn't do it infront of anyone and went and hid when it was feeding time and i just didn't like the feeling, then i had my 3rd prem and he was getting someone elses breast milk in SCBU so thought hold on he should have mine so midwives helped me express, then helped me breast feed him when he was ready i desperately wanted to feed him because i hadn't bonded with him and he didn't feel like my baby so i knew that was one way that could help as i would never breast feed someone elses baby and it did really help, i only fed him for 7 weeks till he was due, then my 4th i wanted to giver her the same as i had given my son so i again fed her for 7 weeks my milk then ran out but only because my 3rd was only 12 months old 10 months proper age and i was doing too much. she is the only one it ever hurt with none of the others ever hurt I had cracked nipples that first week and she didn't latch on properly on that side and thats why i used to hold her other way round on that side in the end head to left and body to the right when feeding from right boob and she latched on properly then and after a few days my boon was better and i could hold her the proper way again. then my 5th was a doddle he just knew exactly what to do like the others and i fed him and i actually loved it this time it was so easy especially as I had other children that i had to do things for and i am just far too lazy to add other jobs on top like washing and sterilizing bottles and getting up in the night no thanks just grab baby from moses basket beside bed and feed and i even managed to doze off and leave my boob out and he could help himself and i got my sleep and was able to have energy for kids. I used to express and put in a botle when going out, me and friends go to lunch every wednesday in the pub so i knewi definately wouldn't feed in there and it was fine, only once did i have a problem and that was only cause i didn't have enough expressed so offered him powdered milk which he wouldn't take, luckily enough i had learned to do it discreetly where noone could even see so I did it that way but whilst i was latching him on we set all the menu's in a row so no one could see i never quite mastered to be able to get baby on without flashing my boob.
my main advise is dont give up too easily if painful at the beginning if you think you will regret it and if you feel you just cant do it and give up dont punish yourself my youngest is no different to my eldest and dont let anyone bully you into carrying on because a happy mum is the best mum a baby can have