Over the past few months i feel like i havnt bonded with hope as much as i should have and its been making me feel awful like when i had pnd its been horrible, I just left it to run its course as i thought it would pass and i would be able to feel alot closer to her, and over the past few days its fooking worked 
Ive a;lways loved hope from the bottom of my heart but there was something that was stopping me being too close, maybe its that fact that i get so worried something will go wrong if you get me and i think shes been feeling how i feel as shes been playing up big time but just now she has just given me the biggest hug ever and a big snog, and that feeling just took my breath away, i feel so good today i really do. I hope no one will judge me for this i just had to share
Ive a;lways loved hope from the bottom of my heart but there was something that was stopping me being too close, maybe its that fact that i get so worried something will go wrong if you get me and i think shes been feeling how i feel as shes been playing up big time but just now she has just given me the biggest hug ever and a big snog, and that feeling just took my breath away, i feel so good today i really do. I hope no one will judge me for this i just had to share
I am convinced she hates me, and its upsetting me, but then the other morning she crawled up to me on the bed, kissed me smack bang on my lips and crawled away again!! I melted!!!
