Being naughty....

[sazzleevans]

Hi

Well i have been feeling quite down the last few days after PM so have been quite naughty and have not answered any emails, texts or even phone calls. In fact i wont even answer the phone.

I am quite an upbeat type and just hate having a conversation when i feel so down.

Anyway i ignored several calls from a mate living in Swansea (abour 1 hr away by car) and she was so worried after a 12 hour night shift so got up and drove all the way down to check on me even though i hadnt answered phone etc.

I had justed pulled out of my street when i noticed someone flasing theie lights at me. I felt SO bad when i realised it was her as i had just ignored for her for days.

I suppose it reminds me that i have to do things even if i dont want too otherwise it causes others disstress.

Sarah

 

[smurf]

That my dear is what you call a true friend.

 

[tracey 2]

ah huni are you ok?

she sounds like a great friend hun and that my dear is what you need at the moment

im sorry you are feeling so down hun you are such a strong person and i know you will be ok.

im here if you ever need me ok hun xxxx

 

[sazzleevans]

Thanks Tracy I am so open yet i am so closed as well. I just like to be on my own when i am not feeling quite right.

Thanks girls.

Sarah

 

[tracey 2]

ok i can understand hun but we are all here for you anytime however you feel. look after yourself hun

 

[Dee1985]

sending you a hug hun
you need to cope in your way so shutting down and being alone is fine if it helps you

but that is a true friend bless her little heart she must have been worried

 

[sazzleevans]

Thank you. I am still very anxious this morning. No idea whats pushed me to this point over the last few days. It maybe the PM results and going to it . I had to sit in the place where everyone goes for their scans etc. It was really painful with adverts for maternity stuff going round and around on a tv screen. Maybe it pushed my buttons more than i realised.


Its good that i can come on here to chat. Really helps.

Sarah

 

[tracey 2]

its been a huge thing for you hun and thats proberly why you feel like that and its only natural.

take care of yourself and remember we are always here

 

[fynemum]

Hey sarah, I think we all want the world just to STOP sometimes, just for a while, let us get our breath back.... and constant reminders of what we should have makes it worse, not that we grudge other people....we don't, it's just that WE want it too... and it's so unfair....
I shut off sometimes, Tracey too, I have noticed, Keeping a face does help us, but when it all gets too much, shutting down to re-charge doesn't do any harm, Just need to let people know...... It's me alone time, my own thoughts, (not always baby btw) and my own space to regain strength...... People will understand and let you be if you tell them in the right way, not shutting out totally just enough.... Lv Yvonne xx

 

[flower]

hi sarah,

im sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time. Stay strong, tthings will get better soon.

sending you hugs x x