... well those of you who read my rant last night know that my OH has PMT right now, I think its the full moon!! But anyway, we were reading in bed last night and I was reading about birth plans and the first things it said was you should discuss with your OH whether he wants to be at the birth. Well I asked him rather sarcastically cos Ive assumed he would want to be there. Well he said 'ummm no!' Im not sure if he was joking or not so i said 'oh really where would you rather be?' and he said 'as far away as possible'.
So I just shut up and carried on reading. Then it says you should have a plan incase you need a caesarian and again the first queston was about OH being there. So I asked him again and he said "no, no man should have to see that" and i said "well I have to see it!" and he said something along the lines of I dont want to watch surgery, why do you want me to see that?
So I started qietly fuming, too tired to have a row. In the end I was so angry I couldnt sleep. How DARE he think about himself, surely if he loved me he would actually be concerned about me going through this and want to be by my side to make sure Im alright. Sometimes he says things that make me see who he really is and I think this is one of them. In the end I decided that if he ever needs to go into hosptal Im not gonna visit him. Im not gonna bring him anything he needs and Im certainly not holding his hand or finding out whats going on from the staff. The thing is, if he were in hospital he'd expect me by his bedside 24-7. He'd be pathetic.
Whats wrong with his empathy?! He has absolutely no concern for me giving birth and its probably the scariest thing about being a first time mum. He doesnt want to stick up for me, look after me, and all he's thinking about is how it will be for him. Im so angry Im thinking about not letting him come to the next scan in March. Although I probably will. And Ill probably end up looking after him and supporting him more than he does me.
I think he has a split personality, I really do.
So I just shut up and carried on reading. Then it says you should have a plan incase you need a caesarian and again the first queston was about OH being there. So I asked him again and he said "no, no man should have to see that" and i said "well I have to see it!" and he said something along the lines of I dont want to watch surgery, why do you want me to see that?
So I started qietly fuming, too tired to have a row. In the end I was so angry I couldnt sleep. How DARE he think about himself, surely if he loved me he would actually be concerned about me going through this and want to be by my side to make sure Im alright. Sometimes he says things that make me see who he really is and I think this is one of them. In the end I decided that if he ever needs to go into hosptal Im not gonna visit him. Im not gonna bring him anything he needs and Im certainly not holding his hand or finding out whats going on from the staff. The thing is, if he were in hospital he'd expect me by his bedside 24-7. He'd be pathetic.
Whats wrong with his empathy?! He has absolutely no concern for me giving birth and its probably the scariest thing about being a first time mum. He doesnt want to stick up for me, look after me, and all he's thinking about is how it will be for him. Im so angry Im thinking about not letting him come to the next scan in March. Although I probably will. And Ill probably end up looking after him and supporting him more than he does me.
I think he has a split personality, I really do.
God Im having a right old bitch now.. Did cross my mind he might go on and read this. I dont really care though anymore. Im sick of being made to feel like he doesnt really care about how I feel. I wanna see some pasion from him, (not in the bedroom evie!) I mean defending me, maybe some jealousy, SOMETHING, to show he gives a shit.
lol!!
