Another BFN & babies EVERYWHERE!! :(

[CARNAT22]

I found this Kezzi in another part of the forum and thought of you

No name, no face, no date of birth,
No hour of death, no plot of earth.
You never breathed, or kicked or cried
And yet for us, you lived and died

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I have it printed off and carry it in my purse!

 

[Kezzipea]

Yes hun.
Cross a million fingers this time next year we are fat, round and complaining of swollen ankles!

Have a HaPpY NeW yEaR!

PS: Just got an email off 'bounty'; 'You are 39 weeks pregnant!'

Errrrr no im not. But thanks for reminding me. lol. PAH!
Oh the joys!

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[Kezzipea]

Meh.....tears to my eyes......

Thankyou hun. I love it.
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[CARNAT22]

I am so glad I didn't sign up to any of those things - I hear it is very hard to get unsubscribed from them - A-holes!

It is a beautiful little poem and I will read it at Midnight on NYE I think - and raise a glass to the sky!

By the time I am back on PF I would have most likely tested so I'll know if I have a BFP or not (am thiking it is most likely not but who knows!)... Even if I do get a BFP I don't think I'd be in the slightest bit excited.

I have had too many losses to ever enjoy a BFP again!

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[Kezzipea]

I know. Its a strange feeling aint it.
People prob think we sound ungrateful but we try for months and months stressin and crying to GET a BFP and then wen we do its so damned scary.
People tell me not to stress myself out wen i get preg but its virtually impossible wen ur absolutely terrified of MCing AGAIN and having to go thru the pain and hurt AGAIN.
Its awful.
The only time i wont be terrifed and scared is when ive got that baby in my arms.
Until then......basically Sh*t myself and get into a right crazy lady pickle!
Ah!

Well shug seen astho u wont be on here till next week i hope and x fingers u get a terrifying BFP! And have a lovely new year. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

bring on 2012!!!!

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[In Dreams]

Carnat, just been reading your posts really hope things get sorted for you in 2012 xx

SIL doesn't know we are trying to conceive so can't really blame her. We've been told to keep it (her pregnancy) quiet cos it's early days and she's had some scares. This is going to sound really awful but I can't help but think why tell us at this stage then. Feel guilty for thinking it.

 

[CupcakeMummy]

Hi lovely ladies.

I'm due to Ov today. So am lying here post BD with my legs in the air while hubby has a bath. TTC is so classy. Lol!

I just started temping a few days ago and it's stressing me out already. I look for every little thing that could indicate a problem.

Fx my temp goes up in the next couple of days or I'll really worry.

Hope you're all well and 2012 is treating you ok. Fx it's a great year for all of us. Xxxx

 

[CARNAT22]

Happy New Year ladies - hope you all had a lovely Festive break?

I am kind of glad to be back at work today to be honest. I ate and drank far too much so looking forward to lots of healthy food and exercise

AF got me yesterday so that upset me a bit, although what upset me more is that I went against my better judgement and tested early.. I wasted 3 tests including a CB digi... Grrr!

Oh well back to TTC this month and at least my OH will be in the same country when I am fertile this month!

Also got my appointment on Friday which I am excited about - I am also pretty nervous. OH is coming with me so that's cool...

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[KMG]

Carnat22 - sorry the witch got you. Hope all goes well Friday

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[CARNAT22]

Carnat22 - sorry the witch got you. Hope all goes well Friday

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Thank you hun!

I am excited but also pretty nervous.

I have had so many medical things recently (several dental appointments, a smear not to mention about 10 internal scans with my m/c's) that I should be used to being poked and prodded.

I don't expect they'll do much to me on Friday? Maybe just blood tests?

At least I am moving in the right direction

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[Kezzipea]

Ohhhh carnat i know how u feel. I get fed up gettin my foof out infront of everyone all the time
Just dont let em fob u off hun with this appointment. U wana walk out of there positive and feel like somet being done. Dont leave until u satisfied. Some docs can be right idiots. but then most are bloody marvelous.

SO how was everyones NY? Mine was very drunkered im afraid. tut tut me.
But enjoyed myself.
AF finally arrived NYday after being 10days late!
HALLEJULAH!!!!!
Normally id be devasted but i knew i wasnt preg this month (after POAS one hundred times!!!) so i just wanted the cycle to end so i cud TTC agen. BUT the little witch had different ideas! Least maybe thats my periods resetting itself after months of weird cycles or not ovulating after coming off pill in august after WTT.

Cupcakeyyyy cross fingers hun in ur BDing! LEGS UP GIRLIE!!!! Sexyyyyyy lol.

Carnat i wont forget tomo hunny. To our babbas.
4th january 2012 id be holding my little Ellie.
Never forget u pretty angel.

CLINK CLINK
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[CARNAT22]

Carnat i wont forget tomo hunny. To our babbas.
4th january 2012 id be holding my little Ellie.
Never forget u pretty angel.

CLINK CLINK
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"Clink Clink" sweetheart xxxxx

I hope you are doing OK today? I feel surprisingly well balanced actually !!!

I am trying so hard not to bring the sorrow and sadness of last year into this new year. I know my positivity will wane (each BFN see's to that) BUT I do have hope darling.

This year is going to be a good one, I can feel it.

In the meantime, I send all my love to our lost little angels

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[Kezzipea]

Heyyyy hun how r u?
Did u get thru yesterday ok?

I was suprisingly ok. And now tht date has past (the last first anniversary of something) if u know wat i mean.... i feel really positive about this year!

Hope u feel the same n if u need to chat after ur appointment we are all always here for you shug

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[EssJayPea]

Hi ladies. Happy new year!

Cupcake - my legs are up too as I finally got my smiley opk today!

Kezzi & Carnat and thinking of you and your wee lost angels. Carnat really hope your appt goes well hun.

2012 will be our year Xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Kezzipea]

Ooooo goodluck cupcake and jaypea!
Mahoosive crossed fingers ur way!

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[EssJayPea]

Thank you babe. How's your month going so far? Xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[CupcakeMummy]

Hi lovely ladies.

Was thinking of the 2 of you yesterday Carnat and Kezzi - so glad to see you're so upbeat.

Hope everyone is well.

I'm 3 dpo and surprisingly patient at the moment.

Weekends are never too bad either as I'm busy. But I think once I get back to work Monday the normal impatience will kick in.

 

[Kezzipea]

Not sure wat goin on with my cycle jaypea.
My last cycle was 39 days long...... which was bit out the blue!
Started this cycle on Newyears day so god knows wen im guna OV now.
Im confoozed and a little annoyed but C'EST LA VIE (yes i am trying to think more positively this yr)
Hows u doin JP?

Awwww thanx cupcakey, I duno bout carnat but the day actually went by fine. no upsets. World doesnt stop does it. duno wat i was expecting to happen. My mum remebered which was nice. But nope the world kept turning and it was ok.

Big huggles to all you girlie wurlies!!
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[EssJayPea]

Hi Kezzi. our cycles are nuts. Fact. have you been POAS? I'm fine thanks honey, went to visit my nephew and he screamed every time he came to me lol

Hope you're all bonking loads and catch your eggs Xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[CARNAT22]

Hi ladies,

4th Jan went fine for me actually - OH and I cracked open a bottle of Prosecco with dinner that night and toasted our lost bean.

had my appointment with the recurrent miscarriage on Friday and it was all a bit grim.

70% chance they won't be able to find a reason but they did a load of tests (I still have a scan and another blood test to go). They took 14 vials of blood from me !!! I was a wreck afterwards literally and methoporically LOL!

They tested me for
* Chromosome abnormalities (OH was tested too)
* Fibroids / cysts (I will have the scan for this on Wednesday afternoon)
* Blood clotting
* Egg quality

If any of the above come back then I have the option of IVF for egg or chromosome issues / surgery if it's fibroids and regular injections if it's a blood problem.

So all in all I am feeling pretty upset and sad.

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