Doodles
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hubby & I were discussing Christmas last night & I mentioned that I wanted to keep myself busy. He looked at me stupid & asked why. I couldn't believe he even needed to ask, but I kept my cool & simply said, "because we've been robbed of two first Christmas' this year & a family member (our dog, Loki, who was murdered on Easter Sunday).
He rolled his eyes & pulled a face & when I asked him what the face was for he said, "I just think we should forget about what we don't have & concentrate on what we do have" which of course led me to retaliate with "I am but it doesn't bloody stop it from hurting!"
So then we both went into a sulk.
Am I being stupid by letting the miscarriages & Loki's death upset me still at special occasions like Christmas? This is our first Christmas since losing Loki & it hurts like Hell, as does the thought that we should be celebrating a first Christmas but my stupid shitty body keeps things up.
He rolled his eyes & pulled a face & when I asked him what the face was for he said, "I just think we should forget about what we don't have & concentrate on what we do have" which of course led me to retaliate with "I am but it doesn't bloody stop it from hurting!"
So then we both went into a sulk.
Am I being stupid by letting the miscarriages & Loki's death upset me still at special occasions like Christmas? This is our first Christmas since losing Loki & it hurts like Hell, as does the thought that we should be celebrating a first Christmas but my stupid shitty body keeps things up.