After hubby and my very lengthy discussion 2 months ago, after considering our lives, my age, literally everything for 4 years, we decided to go for it.
Last week we were on holiday and I just got a feeling.... I restarted taking my contraceptive pill last Thursday but didn't say anything to hubby. Tonight we've talked and half an hour ago we finished our discussion that my instinct was right, he's changed his mind about ttc. 2 months ago it was him pushing things, saying even with my age we should carry on regardless, even though I worried about risks and had set a time limit on things. He really wanted it and so we should carry on until it happened.
I feel incredibly foolish, beyond foolish, I feel like I've been used as a hobby that he fancied at the time but has changed his mind now. I'd come off the pill, was taking pregnancy vitamins, had spoken to the doctors about it, was using an app (without him knowing so there was no pressure) etc etc.
I'm beyond gutted. I thought we'd got over his worries, he told me he had and we had properly set the ball in motion.
I just don't know what to say, I'm so so gutted 😭😭😢😢
His "reasons" are mostly material, and because he had a bad experience before (got a friend with benefits pregnant).
Just don't know what to say.
Last week we were on holiday and I just got a feeling.... I restarted taking my contraceptive pill last Thursday but didn't say anything to hubby. Tonight we've talked and half an hour ago we finished our discussion that my instinct was right, he's changed his mind about ttc. 2 months ago it was him pushing things, saying even with my age we should carry on regardless, even though I worried about risks and had set a time limit on things. He really wanted it and so we should carry on until it happened.
I feel incredibly foolish, beyond foolish, I feel like I've been used as a hobby that he fancied at the time but has changed his mind now. I'd come off the pill, was taking pregnancy vitamins, had spoken to the doctors about it, was using an app (without him knowing so there was no pressure) etc etc.
I'm beyond gutted. I thought we'd got over his worries, he told me he had and we had properly set the ball in motion.
I just don't know what to say, I'm so so gutted 😭😭😢😢
His "reasons" are mostly material, and because he had a bad experience before (got a friend with benefits pregnant).
Just don't know what to say.