What have I done :'-(

[Princess_Puddles]

Some of you probably saw my post in offtopic about going down to Brighton for my OH’s Sisters wedding today. Well I didn’t end up going, I have had to go on some new tablets and took one yesterday morning and they gave me an extremely bad migraine and felt really dizzy so I took some paracetamol and asked my Mum if she could pop in on her way into town and take Harry with her whilst I tried to sleep it off and finish packing. My Mum took Harry with her and my Brother and I must have dozed for a bit and woke up to my OH coming through the door, I sat up and felt like I was going to faint but nether the less I went into town with him to get some vouchers for his Sisters wedding, a card, small pressie and pick Harry up. Well it didn’t get any better and I said I couldn’t go because I didn’t want to end up feeling worse half way down the motorway so I asked if we could go this morning and he basically told me that he was going then and wasn’t going to wait for today and for me to tell him I didn’t feel well then either, so he went and took Harry with him. I spoke to my Mum this morning and she ALWAYS sticks up for my OH and has called me every name under the sun and she has text me saying ‘I think it’s best if we don’t speak or see each other anymore’ I’m so angry and upset, I threw a glass across the room and it has hit my TV and smashed it sorry I sound like a nut case but It was only in a rage of upset and anger (I wouldn’t have done it if Harry were here, well none of this would have happened if he was here now), I just don’t know what to do, I didn’t even get to say goodbye to Harrison last night and now I’m not going to see him until next Saturday. I’m stuck at home with no way of getting to see him and they’ll all be having a nice time. I feel so alone, I have no where to turn now, I have no friends, my Grandparents live in spain I don’t know if it was the right thing to do but I’ve told my OH he has to find somewhere else to live and I’ve packed his things up. I’m sorry I just have no one to talk to and need to get it off my chest

 

[clairescunny55]

aww hun im so sorry i dont really know what to say but it sounds like you need some cuddles

 

[x-kirsty-x]

I'm here if you want to rant

 

[Emmylou]

Oh no hun So sorry to read this
How do you actually feel about your relationship with your OH? Is it worth fighting for or are you unhappy in your relationship?
It is difficult, but if it is worth fighting for then you must stand up and fight, and sometimes you have to stand down too.
I think if you can make the most of next week being just you & OH and make the decision over whether things can work or not you have made a good step.
If you want to make things work, then maybe a bit later unpack his clothes again, send him a text saying you are sorry for overreacting, and asking him to call you when its convenient (I'm assuming he'll be busy with being at the wedding).

Are you on tablets for depression? Do you feel depressed?
I am currently having depression in waves, and my DH has made me promise to talk to the GP on Tuesday (I have an appointment). I have told nobody else until I saw your post and felt I could relate slightly.
Y'day I was stood in the middle of town shouting and swearing about how sh*t my life is, and moaning very loudly about Barclays bank (who had tipped me over the edge).
I am extremely embarassed by my behaviour today, but y'day I just didn't care who saw me - turns out one of my friends did but thought better of approaching me and mentioned it to my DH (who I had been on the phone to ranting and raving at the time) when she saw him later that day

I'm not entirely sure why your mum has abandoned you though when you need her more than ever by the sounds of it hun

Oh, and clear the glass up before you cut yourself on it

 

[Princess_Puddles]

Thank you for replying and for the hugs

Oh no hun So sorry to read this
How do you actually feel about your relationship with your OH? Is it worth fighting for or are you unhappy in your relationship?
It is difficult, but if it is worth fighting for then you must stand up and fight, and sometimes you have to stand down too.
I think if you can make the most of next week being just you & OH and make the decision over whether things can work or not you have made a good step.
If you want to make things work, then maybe a bit later unpack his clothes again, send him a text saying you are sorry for overreacting, and asking him to call you when its convenient (I'm assuming he'll be busy with being at the wedding).

Are you on tablets for depression? Do you feel depressed?
I am currently having depression in waves, and my DH has made me promise to talk to the GP on Tuesday (I have an appointment). I have told nobody else until I saw your post and felt I could relate slightly.
Y'day I was stood in the middle of town shouting and swearing about how sh*t my life is, and moaning very loudly about Barclays bank (who had tipped me over the edge).
I am extremely embarassed by my behaviour today, but y'day I just didn't care who saw me - turns out one of my friends did but thought better of approaching me and mentioned it to my DH (who I had been on the phone to ranting and raving at the time) when she saw him later that day

I'm not entirely sure why your mum has abandoned you though when you need her more than ever by the sounds of it hun

Oh, and clear the glass up before you cut yourself on it

Thank you for your reply. To be honest I really don't feel like it's worth fighting for because I love him it's because I don't have anyone else. I am very unhappy in our relationship! I feel like a little kid wanting to get my own way he keeps telling me how it's all my fault i'm not there and that when Harry gets older he will be so disappointed in me, but I only wanted him to wait till the morning
No I'm not on tablets for depression, even though I feel I should be as I have got alot of problems with anxiety, feeling stressed and low at the moment and have been to the doctors many of times recently but they aren't helping me at all. At the moment I feel if I were to top myself it would be better for everyone
I'm really sorry your having a rough time too Emmylou I do hope the doctors goes well! Thank you for listening to me

 

[HappyAlice]

Princess Puddles you have done nothing wrong - I would have done the same thing, it's not nice feeling ill away from home.
Now if I were you I'd relax this next week and pamper yourself - watch your favourite films, read some good books, do your nails, cook yourself a tasty meal, go for a picnic, go to the cinema - whatever makes you feel good. Get yourself nice and strong because I'm sure when your OH gets back he will realise you both need to sort it out especially when he sees his bags packed.
He shouldn't be using Harry against you by saying 'Harry will be disappointed in you' - this is rubbish, he is your little boy and loves you.
Hope you are OK, and don't let your OH make you feel bad (or your mum), you have done the right thing

 

[lisanat]

Hi ya hon,
Please dont feel like that. You have done nothing wrong. I cant understand why your mum is being like tht.
If you werent around Harry wouldnt have his lovely mummy to give him cuddles and kisses, I think if your unhappy with OH then you need to sit down and chat with him because your just going to endup feeling worse and its not good for you or Harry. But Im not a dr but what your saying sounds just like my friend was like when she had pnd. Have you spoken to the GP or health visitor?

xxx

 

[Babylicious]

 

[Emmylou]

At the moment I feel if I were to top myself it would be better for everyone

That would be the worst thing you could do, you have a whole life ahead of you, no matter how bad things feel now, they are not going to be bad forever. Harry needs you and you need to be there for him, you will see him grow into a fabulous young man, and acheive many things.

My ex I was the same as you are now, I was with him because I thought he was my only chance, and that I couldn't do any better, I am not saying necessarily end it with your OH, but feeling the way you do is not making you happy, which isn't a great basis for a relationship.

You need to tell him exactly how you are feeling, and I'll tell you something, just because you feel you have no one else is not enough reason to stay.

I think your GP should be the first port of call though, as you do sound like you are suffering depression, if they can give you something to take the edge of, you will be able to make a more sensible decision on how to progress.

Maybe try to get out to mother & baby groups too, I'm going to look for some next week, maybe we can support each other into going, you never know, you could end the month with more friends than you think

 

[lillou]

 

[tracey 2]

hope your ok hun,

sent you a PM

 

[foxymum]

PP don't know what to say hun that the other fab girls haven't already said. but

 

[mum2be?]

Im sorry hunny only just read
i hope you are ok

Here to talk if you need