Oh boy am I stuffing the chocolate down me?! Ha I think that's all I've really eaten. Thanks for your advice girls, I'm still bleeding, no cramps today but had plenty yday, just want it all to end now.
I think me and oh are feeling better about it now, I think I'm feeling more angry about it today, but for stupid reasons... Like I would have been due in July, which meant baby would start school earlier, meaning less of a gap with my little boy. Now if I get preg then baby will have to wait another war before they start, and will be one of the oldest. It's so trivial I know, but it's like one of those things that I was really happy about.
And I got pregnant so quickly after coming off the pill, I knew it was too good to be true.
I feel like I just want to start trying again, straight away. But I can't really do anything until Iv stopped bleeding, but this could take weeks? And then the dr said to wait for 2 periods before we try? I honestly don't think I can wait that long, but if it means not goin through this again I'd do it.
Sorry to ramble again, just feeling a bit weird today, I'm more angry and annoyed and feeling wretched towards everyone, whereas before all I wanted to do was cry. I don't want to have had a miscarriage, I dont want to bleed for weeks. I don't want everyone's sympathy, but I also don't want people to treat me like everything's fine because it isn't. I want my baby back, I want to wake up and this all be an awful dream, I want to start growing a bump soon, and har my scan in a few weeks and see that it's all ok, but I can't....... I'm so annoyed with all of this and my heart goes out to everyone who's suffered mc before, it's such a head f***.