Was sent home from work...

[Steelgoddess]

had a mega shite day today at work...

yesterday I was a bit moody because something was going to change with regards to the website i had designed for work, and without meaning to i threw a bit of a strop and ended up saying "Im just the designer anyway so jus forget i said anything" to my manager and another guy who were discussing the changes.

Im currently still on an extended probation at work and one of the terms is that i need to work on my "attitude" I feel its so unfair as im one of the happiest, funniest (so im told) ppl not only on my team but in my department. i find it hard to take critisism at work becausae in previous roles if i wasnt being bullied by other members of the team i was being put down so it has made me extremly defensive...

So today when called into a meeting with HR to discuss yesterdays outburst i had another tantrum telling them i was fed up and fcked off and i didnt feel like i knew where i stood. i finding it so hard to control my hormones at work and it doesnt feel like they are fully taking that into account (Obviously im not like this as a person, i have my down days which lead me to either be tearful, moody or throw a strop and its normally a work or at home seeing i spend most of my time there).

I just dont know what to do anymore, I always have communication problems in the sense of i cannot understand how I want to convey what i want to say in words its completly different but language i do sometimes find it a problem...

I can completly understand the other reasons of my prbaton ie technical stuff, but how on earth is someone who is a hormonal freak of nature atm supposed to work on their attitude?? I had time to think today and whilst i can see their point that its not always good i am having this mood swings or "attitude" problems at work, i also find it a bit unfair seeing my current status, am i being unreasonable?

p.s i was sent home from work today because my manager knew i had run off to my cry to have a sob and was in not fit state to work properly

 

[Jollypops]

Oh hun here have this . Sounds in someways i'm abit like you, people take things i say the wrong way, so i probly dont put it right and then get angry they've taken it that way.
Take a few days off if you can, have abit of a rest and chill out. If your like me at the moment there is so much going on i dont really no what i'm suppose to be doing first.
They also need to remember that attitude and productive critisim are different issues, maybe you can play along these lines???
Hope you get it all sorted soon.

 

[Mildly]

Aww hun, it is especially hard when pregnant to control your emotions. I tend to stick up a metaphorical middle finger to people when they are annoying me at work. It makes me feel better and I don't get in trouble for doing/saying anything I shouldn't

 

[Laura_James&Amber]

sorry to hear you are having a bad time of it hun. heres some hugs to cheer you up
I totally understand where you are coming from and it seems they have forgotton you are pregnant.
Have some time off and relax at home. A break is just what you need

 

[Chrissy1]

I had to leave work the other day too because I burst out crying because someone cheesed me off!! I don't think people actually realise just how much pregnancy hormones effect you.

Have yourself a nice cup of tea and put your feet up and watch your favourite film this afternoon.....you'll feel much better later

 

[nickilubs]

Awwww sorry to hear that. People don't seem to understand it especially when your feeling poo anyway. Their criticism doesn't help to make you feel better which is totally understandable. It was probs best that you came home for the afternoon then you have the whole weekend to just sit and relax a bit and see how things go.

Hope you feel better soon and I hope they sort their bums out!!!

 

[nori]

Aww these hormones are a bitch! Ive been a nightmare at work and like you im usually really happy. Ive written emails to manager moaning and we had an external company in the other day to say what we think of the workplace. I just went off on one! I actually really like the company!

I think you may need to just have a meeting and explain to them the situation (and spell it out) When things annoy you in the future, take a deep breath and walk away for a few minutes.

It is hard though.. I didnt really appreciate the hormonal sides of pregnancy before now.

Claire x

 

[Steelgoddess]

Thnaks everyone for your comments...

Im looking into taking a greivence out on him if possible, he mentioned in a meeting that they would be looking to extend my probation... AGAIN because of this attitude problem which keeps cropping up... (funny that as at my last meeting 3 weeks ago he said i was doing fantastically so he must be basing that decision on 1 outburst then silly twat!).

I've had enough, part of me in the back of my head finds it all too odd that he is consistantly extending my probation even though he knows i am pregnant hmmm...

Im not going to allow him to get to me

x