TTC is making me crazy!

[Stephyjae1994]

Hi all!

So my partner and I have been TTC since 6th November (when I stopped my pill) so as you can imagine my cycle is all over the place no idea when I ovulated. I had a withdrawal bleed from the pill from 13-17th Nov and we have DTD on 18th, 19th, 22nd, 24th, 26th, 29th, 30th, 1st Dec, 2nd and 3rd. (Sorry for TMI)

So as my cycle isn’t right I don’t know when my 2WW starts or ends or IF I even would have conceived so soon. So I’m driving myself mad with testing every single morning thinking to myself “if I conceived on the 22nd it would show on a test by now” and then the same for every other date we DTD.

And every single morning I see a BFN I get a horrible sinking feeling. But I cannot stop testing, I tell myself every day I see the BFN to just WAIT until my period comes/doesn’t whenever that may be but I simply don’t have the self control. I think it only takes 24 hrs for your HCG to reach a detectable level so I carry on testing 😟 not to mention the fact I’m spending a small fortune on FRER as I was testing with internet cheapies but after reading reviews of how inaccurate they can be I gave up with them.

Please ladies bring me back down to earth and share some of your experiences or give me some advice on how to cope with waiting for a BFP! So impatient it’s my own fault for TTC without regulating my cycle first

Many thanks and baby dust to all TTC. X

 

[Sunflower1]

Don't really know how to help. You might have conceived on first try but it usually takes a bit longer for most people. Can you switch to testing once a week? You don't even know if you ovulated yet. Can you focus on something else and give it some time? Then if you get AF you could start charting, temping, doing opks or something to keep track. If the withdrawal bleed was an AF then you won't be due another AF til mid December anyway. And it could be too early to test too.

 

[WolfMamma]

You and I are in a fairly similar boat, at fairly similar times too!

I had my coil removed on the 22nd and also have no idea where I am in my cycle or even if I am ovulating! We have been dtd pretty much every day or every other day at least so covering all our bases.

You and me can stick together through this!!

I find by not having any tests in the house I am not tempted. I had one already in my drawer and did it on the 1st as I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Now I have none and I although I am dying to test, I can't! Problem fixed!

I do have to test on the 15th due to alcohol plans for the week after but apart from that I will be staying away from them and just letting things take their own time.

Feel free to message me any time x

 

[Summerwine]

I didn't ovulate until 3 weeks after my withdrawal bleed first cycle! It's possible that you wont even have ovulated yet. Could you switch to ovulation testing? It might be cheaper, as you can buy 30 ovulation tests on amazon for less than a fiver, but it might also give you more of a feeling of control than guessing.

Just an idea! x

 

[Stephyjae1994]

Don't really know how to help. You might have conceived on first try but it usually takes a bit longer for most people. Can you switch to testing once a week? You don't even know if you ovulated yet. Can you focus on something else and give it some time? Then if you get AF you could start charting, temping, doing opks or something to keep track. If the withdrawal bleed was an AF then you won't be due another AF til mid December anyway. And it could be too early to test too.

Thank you for replying! I’m due to receive my masters degree results any day now but I feel like I don’t even care... I just want that positive test! I never thought I’d of become this obsessed we started off “casually” trying without all the ovulation testing and charting and within 2 weeks my partner and I were both obsessed with trying to make sense of my cycle and testing. You are probably right about not ovulating yet so it’ll probably be at least another 2 weeks before I get any answers. Thanks so much! X

 

[Stephyjae1994]

You and I are in a fairly similar boat, at fairly similar times too!

I had my coil removed on the 22nd and also have no idea where I am in my cycle or even if I am ovulating! We have been dtd pretty much every day or every other day at least so covering all our bases.

You and me can stick together through this!!

I find by not having any tests in the house I am not tempted. I had one already in my drawer and did it on the 1st as I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Now I have none and I although I am dying to test, I can't! Problem fixed!

I do have to test on the 15th due to alcohol plans for the week after but apart from that I will be staying away from them and just letting things take their own time.

Feel free to message me any time x

Yay! I’m glad to hear somebody is in the same situation! It’s hard as my family and friends aren’t aware we are TTC yet so I don’t really get to openly talk about things.

You are DEFINITELY right about the tests being in the house. I’ve still got one FRER left and a few internet cheapies but I think I’m going to ask my partner to hide them really well! I do a test in the morning then go to work and mope all day and can’t stop thinking about doing that next test the next morning. It’s almost an obsession!

Let me know what your test comes up with on the 15th I’ll keep my fingers and toes crossed you get your positive thanks for replying and making me feel better I really appreciate it x

 

[Stephyjae1994]

I didn't ovulate until 3 weeks after my withdrawal bleed first cycle! It's possible that you wont even have ovulated yet. Could you switch to ovulation testing? It might be cheaper, as you can buy 30 ovulation tests on amazon for less than a fiver, but it might also give you more of a feeling of control than guessing.

Just an idea! x

I think that’s a good idea my partner and I started off “casually” trying and within two weeks we were both obsessed with trying to track things! So I think ovulation testing is the next step to ease the constant pg testing! At least I will know when the 2ww is then. Thanks so much for replying! X

 

[WolfMamma]

You and I are in a fairly similar boat, at fairly similar times too!

I had my coil removed on the 22nd and also have no idea where I am in my cycle or even if I am ovulating! We have been dtd pretty much every day or every other day at least so covering all our bases.

You and me can stick together through this!!

I find by not having any tests in the house I am not tempted. I had one already in my drawer and did it on the 1st as I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Now I have none and I although I am dying to test, I can't! Problem fixed!

I do have to test on the 15th due to alcohol plans for the week after but apart from that I will be staying away from them and just letting things take their own time.

Feel free to message me any time x

Yay! I’m glad to hear somebody is in the same situation! It’s hard as my family and friends aren’t aware we are TTC yet so I don’t really get to openly talk about things.

You are DEFINITELY right about the tests being in the house. I’ve still got one FRER left and a few internet cheapies but I think I’m going to ask my partner to hide them really well! I do a test in the morning then go to work and mope all day and can’t stop thinking about doing that next test the next morning. It’s almost an obsession!

Let me know what your test comes up with on the 15th I’ll keep my fingers and toes crossed you get your positive thanks for replying and making me feel better I really appreciate it x

Ahh see most of my family know that we are trying. I think my husband is quite proud actually!

Have you started a journal on here? It really helps to keep the obsession contained!

 

[Maximus17]

hiya yes I am also going crazy here!, I am only 7dpo but I already tested and its BFN of course. I am having the same symptoms as every month before AF comes so I just don't think I am pregnant again and that's all I can think of!!! if you find a way to be normal let me know lol

 

[Stephyjae1994]

hiya yes I am also going crazy here!, I am only 7dpo but I already tested and its BFN of course. I am having the same symptoms as every month before AF comes so I just don't think I am pregnant again and that's all I can think of!!! if you find a way to be normal let me know lol

Glad there’s other like me! It’s so consuming isn’t it. I never thought I’d become this obsessed! 😂 how long have you been ttc? sending lots of baby dust your way!!xx

 

[Maximus17]

It will be our 5th cycle so not that long but long enough for us, I never ever thought it would take this long as with my DD it was very quick, I never understood what it feels like to try and try. We thought it would happen straight away actually, started planning things, it's really heartbreaking, and do you know the worst bit is that I really don't think it's going to happen for us again, I just have this gut feeling. I just know that my body has changed so much within the last year. My periods became very light and painful, than had pain every day, very hormonal, I got diagnosed with mild endo which is now removed. But I just know that my age (nearly 40) has so much to do with this. My hormones are all over the place , I mean 40 might not sound too old for some but I think I have aged lol we decided to try for 6 cycles and if it doesn't happen we will reevaluate maybe stop trying??? as it's very stressful, we are putting everything old hold, like planning holidays, choosing a school for our daughter, and just overall stress of not knowing if it's going to happen.
So if anyone is obsessed I am more obsessed! Every minute of every day it's in my mind, spending soo much money on ovulation and pregnancy tests. Sorry for the long reply but it's all coming out lol

 

[Maximus17]

I also forgot to add to show you how obsessed I am , when I do pregnancy tests, I sometimes seeing lines that there. I look at them in different lights and if I look long enough I start seeing things lol I sound sooo mental don't I ...

 

[tara_46]

BNF induced psychosis is what I call it!

 

[Maximus17]

hi tara yes you are sooo right, I am so glad we found a name for our disease lol

 

[Jemmlove]

We are on the exact same boat. I’m praying I conceived coming off my pill but I have no clue when and no clue to tell when. I just test every now and then because honestly the bfn’s and lack of actual confirmed ovulation was driving me insane! I’ve decided that I was crazy to expect a bfp straight from coming off bc and waiting for my period so I can begin to properly track! I think the fact we don’t know when to check is driving us insane so I would advise you to do that. As soon as you get a period start tracking with opks temp etc and then you will KNOW. Unless you have indeed fallen pregnant already then that would be magical!!

 

[Sunflower1]

I very rarely test now - temping tells me when AF is coming anyway. It is less stressful.

 

[Hmmm]

Same boat here came of the pill 2 wednesdays ago to start casually TTC now im finding it really hard to not get my hopes up I think i ovulated last week as my left ovary was really hurting but i know the chances of that are slim going to do a test next wednesday and im really trying not to get my hopes up

 

[Stephyjae1994]

I also forgot to add to show you how obsessed I am , when I do pregnancy tests, I sometimes seeing lines that there. I look at them in different lights and if I look long enough I start seeing things lol I sound sooo mental don't I ...

I see lines too!!!! Always searching for the faintest of faint lines that I actually start to see them! I’m sorry it’s taking you so long, I can’t imagine what it feels like I hope you get baby #2 soon.. and you never know even after 6 cycles a little surprise may just come along without really trying to track cycles fingers crossed for you! Xx

 

[Stephyjae1994]

We are on the exact same boat. I’m praying I conceived coming off my pill but I have no clue when and no clue to tell when. I just test every now and then because honestly the bfn’s and lack of actual confirmed ovulation was driving me insane! I’ve decided that I was crazy to expect a bfp straight from coming off bc and waiting for my period so I can begin to properly track! I think the fact we don’t know when to check is driving us insane so I would advise you to do that. As soon as you get a period start tracking with opks temp etc and then you will KNOW. Unless you have indeed fallen pregnant already then that would be magical!!

Thank you!! I’m glad you are experiencing the same thing and understand just how frustrating it is! Ive told my partner just now that I’m done with testing and if I don’t get a period in a week I’ll test then. I need something to look forward to and then deal with disappointment rather than having daily disappointments if that makes any sense at all!? I really am going to try to stop testing until I’ve given my period a chance to show. I’m so miserable because of these daily BFN! I’m hoping you get your little miracle in your first cycle! it would be amazing for us both! Keep us posted when you get your BFP!! Xx

 

[Stephyjae1994]

Same boat here came of the pill 2 wednesdays ago to start casually TTC now im finding it really hard to not get my hopes up I think i ovulated last week as my left ovary was really hurting but i know the chances of that are slim going to do a test next wednesday and im really trying not to get my hopes up

It’s hard not to try and track where you’re at isn’t it! I imagined it’d be so easy.. come off the pill, DTD a lot then BAM BFP two weeks later. How wrong I was!!! 😂 fingers crossed for you!! Keep me updated for when you get your BFP xx