Thanks girls, I'm so glad to have all your support.
I've just come home now have been with my mom all day, she's in bits which is to be expected, she found him this morning sitting on the sofa where he'd been all night. They think he had a heart attack, sometime during the night, he was all on his own and I can't stop thinking about him being in pain and lonely. It hasn't really sunk in, all the family were there today and we all sat outside in the sun talking about nothing but now I'm home I can't stop crying, I keep expecting him to just turn up and crack one of his silly jokes or something.
The thing that hurts the most is he's not gonna see A grow up and A will never remember his grandad who doted on him from the second he met him. I've only got one picture of my dad too, thankfully he's holding A so I'll be able to show him how much he loved him with that.
I miss him so much already, I don't know how I'm gonna get through the rest of the day let alone forever without him.
Thanks again for your support girls xx