gemloulau
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Hi All
As I said in the title, I am struggling with my current feelings toward my brother and his wife, I really don't want to feel like this because he is my brother and I love him dearly.
I'm hoping some of you wise ladies can kick me into shape.
My brother is 5 years younger than me. He and his wife got married a year before me and my OH did.
At the end of last year, they announced their pregnancy, just around the time that my first angel baby would have been due. I hadn't told my family about that miscarriage, whilst I was overjoyed for them, it broke my heart because I felt like it should have been me.
Around the same time, coincidentally, we both put our houses on the market. They didn't have much interest in theirs initially. We had loads of viewings but for various reasons 4 sales fell through - it was a very stressful time, we had got so far down the chain each time that our lives were boxed up and we were ready to go. Eventually the owners of the house we were buying got tired of waiting and they found another buyer. This whole thing went on for months and the stress and financial aspect really took it's toll on me and my OH.
When I found out that I was expecting Leo, we took our house off the market and decided to try again next year after he was born.
My brother and his wife had their little boy in April - just after I found out I was expecting Leo.
This week, they have moved in to their new home - a perfect family home back in the village where we grew up, close to our parents. It's a forever home, enough bedrooms to expand his family and they are so happy being there.
I am happy for them of course but it is really eating me up and I am starting to feel resentful. They seem to have everything they ever wanted with no hassle and here I am, heartbroken that I have lost my little darling boy, stuck in a house that I hate. I am totally and utterly miserable. I keep thinking how unfair it is, why can't I have my baby and the happy life, what have I done that is so wrong that means I don't deserve and it they do.
I know it is unfair for me to feel this way but I do, I haven't seen them since Leo was born. I can't face seeing my nephew (who I love) because it brings up such feelings of jealousy and resentment.
I don't know how to stop feeling like this, I love my brother so much but these feelings are eating me up.
xx
As I said in the title, I am struggling with my current feelings toward my brother and his wife, I really don't want to feel like this because he is my brother and I love him dearly.
I'm hoping some of you wise ladies can kick me into shape.
My brother is 5 years younger than me. He and his wife got married a year before me and my OH did.
At the end of last year, they announced their pregnancy, just around the time that my first angel baby would have been due. I hadn't told my family about that miscarriage, whilst I was overjoyed for them, it broke my heart because I felt like it should have been me.
Around the same time, coincidentally, we both put our houses on the market. They didn't have much interest in theirs initially. We had loads of viewings but for various reasons 4 sales fell through - it was a very stressful time, we had got so far down the chain each time that our lives were boxed up and we were ready to go. Eventually the owners of the house we were buying got tired of waiting and they found another buyer. This whole thing went on for months and the stress and financial aspect really took it's toll on me and my OH.
When I found out that I was expecting Leo, we took our house off the market and decided to try again next year after he was born.
My brother and his wife had their little boy in April - just after I found out I was expecting Leo.
This week, they have moved in to their new home - a perfect family home back in the village where we grew up, close to our parents. It's a forever home, enough bedrooms to expand his family and they are so happy being there.
I am happy for them of course but it is really eating me up and I am starting to feel resentful. They seem to have everything they ever wanted with no hassle and here I am, heartbroken that I have lost my little darling boy, stuck in a house that I hate. I am totally and utterly miserable. I keep thinking how unfair it is, why can't I have my baby and the happy life, what have I done that is so wrong that means I don't deserve and it they do.
I know it is unfair for me to feel this way but I do, I haven't seen them since Leo was born. I can't face seeing my nephew (who I love) because it brings up such feelings of jealousy and resentment.
I don't know how to stop feeling like this, I love my brother so much but these feelings are eating me up.
xx