caseysmummy11
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I'm having a hard time coping at the moment. It will be 7 months on the 6th of this month that one of my twins was born sleeping. The ache in my heart is worse than ever. We found out last week that she could have been saved and it's eating me up inside. It's also almost 12 months since my 12 week scan, the first time I saw her little face and little legs kicking away. I'm just wishing I could go back to that day so bad. It's constantly on my mind, I'm constantly thinking about the whole day they were born, we didn't know she was gone before she was born so was a big shock and had to hear them try to bring her back and it keep replaying over and over in my head. And I keep picturing her perfect little face. Ive been trying to just get on with things for the sake of my family but I don't think i can keep on pretending I'm okay when I'm breaking inside. I just miss her so much. I'm dreading going back to work next month as I work in the hospital I had all my antenatal scans and appointments in and my office is right opposite the ultrasound dept. I don't know what to do. I think I may need to go back to councilling as I'm really struggling with dealing with it all now xxx