Still a bit traumatised

[AmeliaM27]

Not from my birth experience thank god but from something else that happened whilst I was in hospital.
Just after is had my baby boy and passed the placenta an alarm went and the midwife who was looking after us was called off to an emergency. Next thing all hell broke loose outside with midwives and doctors rushing around, shouts of consent forms needing to be signed etc etc. at first I thought it was a straight forward emergency c-section but when the midwife came back in after at least an hour she looked really upset and although not being able tell me what had happened she said it was a really serious emergency and was still going on.
Since then I haven't been able to get it out of my mind. Can't help wondering what happened and worrying that baby, mum or both didn't make it.
I feel so incredibly lucky to have had a straight forward delivery and a healthy baby - and I feel so stupid now for being upset that I wasn't able to have the homebirth I'd planned on due to waters breaking over 24 hrs before going in to labour.
I hope and pray that mum and baby made it and are ok. Not sure why I can't stop thinking about it

 

[tinselcat]

Hi hun, that sounds dreadful, I hope they're all alright too, and I'm not surprised you were distressed by it all (particularly with the hormones flooding your system)

You have nothing to feel guilty about but perhaps try to focus on the positive that you and baby are both well.

Congratulations on your new baby xx

 

[Jessiecat]

Not suprising at all, I'd have been distressed too but unfortunately you'll probably never know the outcome and need to be able to move forward with your baby (easier said than done I'm sure).
But just go easy on yourself and understand this is an upsetting situation for snyone so it's normal to feel the way you do xx

 

[CARNAT22]

Gosh what a horrid experience. I can only imagine how you felt hearing this all going on just moments after having your baby.

I agree you probably won't find out what happened (you could try Google and see if anything is in the local news? Although I don't know if this is going to make you feel any better?)

All you can do is take solice from the fact that the staff all dedicated themselves to helping as much as they possibly could. This emergency took precedence over everything else and I'm sure mum and baby were given the best treatment available.

I had an experience of that hideous alarm going off at an antenatal appointment (antenatal was on a different floor to labour ward / birth centre but it was the floor you go to when you have your initial assessment upon arrival when you are in labour). Every single member of staff literally downed tools and left. Barring the receptionist the whole clinic emptied.... this is a busy London hospital!!! MV's / Dr's just ran out of rooms and left thier patients.

I found it terrifying but reassuring too. I saw how seriously they took an emergency and I knew who ever needed help was getting it. Half an hour later staff began to trickle back in but I never found out what happened.

My sister had to have the horrid alarm pulled with her second baby. Meconium in her waters (a lot of meconium though) and she was rushed from one floor to another using the magic lift key.... basically a key MV's have to have lift come immediately in an emergency - they chuck anyone in lift out as soon as it arrives. Thankfully all was ok but it's another reassuring example as to how quickly staff can act in an emergency.

I'd maybe mention it to your MW when she comes out? She might be able to give you some info (depends if she is from the hospital or a community MW) but she should at least be able to reassure you.

Try not to let this overshadow your happy time. Even if the worst thing did happen noone would want you or your baby to suffer because of it.

X

 

[Ella1979]

I remember alarms going off when we were in special care with our daughter. Some of the stuff I saw there was heartbreaking and we were so lucky our little girl was just fine (very tiny, but fine). It played on my mind quite a bit and it's difficult not to think about those things. There is no way of finding out what happened, you just have to think that she was getting the best possible care and hope that things turned out ok xxx