My emotions are all over the place at the moment. One minute i'm ok and all seems to be going on as normal, the next minute i'm crying so hard I can barely breathe.
I'm surrounded by such loving family and friends yet I feel utterly alone. My husband's of the opinion that it happened, it was very sad but we should move on and enjoy christmas. But how do you just switch it all off and move on? I've never felt so un-festive in my whole life. I can't even bring myself to write any christmas cards and wrapping presents today was so hard.
He did admit it's easier for him as he's not physically having to go through this, which is horrendous as everytime I go to the loo I'm reminded of what's happening to my body at the moment.
I'm trying to focus on the positive, that I now know I can get pregnant but if im honest, it really isn't that much of a consollation and i'm actually terrified of getting pregnant again as I don't know if i can go through this again.
Sorry to keep going on. It's just this is the only place where I feel I can be completely honest about how i'm feeling. I'm always putting on a brave face and normally deal with my emotions alone. Everyone is so sad for us and it's hard to really tell them how devastated I actually am about it all.
Thank you all for reading xx
I'm surrounded by such loving family and friends yet I feel utterly alone. My husband's of the opinion that it happened, it was very sad but we should move on and enjoy christmas. But how do you just switch it all off and move on? I've never felt so un-festive in my whole life. I can't even bring myself to write any christmas cards and wrapping presents today was so hard.
He did admit it's easier for him as he's not physically having to go through this, which is horrendous as everytime I go to the loo I'm reminded of what's happening to my body at the moment.
I'm trying to focus on the positive, that I now know I can get pregnant but if im honest, it really isn't that much of a consollation and i'm actually terrified of getting pregnant again as I don't know if i can go through this again.
Sorry to keep going on. It's just this is the only place where I feel I can be completely honest about how i'm feeling. I'm always putting on a brave face and normally deal with my emotions alone. Everyone is so sad for us and it's hard to really tell them how devastated I actually am about it all.
Thank you all for reading xx