At the risk of sounding crazy, I'm worrieed because I'm not scared. I can't work out if it's denial or acceptance
I hate being pregnant. I'm going to the doctor today to get signed off of my last 3 weeks of work (with the encouragement of my work who have already given me flowers and things even though I don't have the sick note yet
) so last night I took a note of how often I wake to turn over because of the pain. The answer is every hour!
I don't have long lies to make up for it because eventually turning over doesn't work as I'm still sore from my last snooze.
I know labour will be hell. But if the hell part goes on for a day they'll cut LO out of me anyway. And if I decide I can't cope there are lots of drugs available. I'd rather use as little in the way of drugs as possible, but if labout goes on for a very long time and I'm exhausted I will have an epidural.
I really liked the program Dawn... Gets a baby. You can still see it for the next 3 days on bbc iplayer online. It showed 2 water births with just gas and air and they managed. And the second baby was there - they didn't seem to care about the labour at all
We will manage. And if we can't, we live in a wonderful world of anaesthetics.
And then we'll have babies
I hope Kim doesn't mind me saying this but one of the most reassuring things I have read was written by her, just after the birth. It went along the lines of - it was hell, I'm never ever doing it again, but I'd do it 10,000 times to have Leah
I just loved the contadiction
Baby will make everything worthwhile
Sorry I go on so much!