I have some sad news
my mum died on Wednesday. I cant believe it really. Writing that down is just words and my emotions havent really caught up. (That is the best way I can explain it!)
Mum was diagnosed with cancer in January so we have had a little while to prepare. (DS was 9 weeks old when I found out. I cannot describe how horrendous it was.) She died peacefully at home so we were able to spend a lot of time together. At the moment Im trying to forget how awful those few weeks were and get back my memories from before she was ill. I feel some relief now that she is not suffering anymore. I am catholic and have a very strong faith. I truly believe she has gone to a better place, so in that sense, Im not worried. Im concerned about my dad but we are a strong and supportive family so Im sure hell get through it with our help.
I just cant imagine facing the rest of my life without her. Im 33 and it just feels far to young to have to say goodbye. DD is 10 and I know how much Mum loved her and how proud she was. What upsets me the most is that she wont see DS grow up. I tell myself she is watching over us now, which brings a little comfort.
So, this is why Ive not been around much lately, and maybe wont for a little while longer. Its nice to see how youre all doing though. Look after yourselves. DS is doing well. Started putting weight on well with formula at 4mths. Loves his sloppy food now and is sitting up well and pushing himself around on his tummy. He has a beautiful smile, two little teeth and huge blue eyes.
Thanks for listening! Youre all stars!
Ladybird xx
Mum was diagnosed with cancer in January so we have had a little while to prepare. (DS was 9 weeks old when I found out. I cannot describe how horrendous it was.) She died peacefully at home so we were able to spend a lot of time together. At the moment Im trying to forget how awful those few weeks were and get back my memories from before she was ill. I feel some relief now that she is not suffering anymore. I am catholic and have a very strong faith. I truly believe she has gone to a better place, so in that sense, Im not worried. Im concerned about my dad but we are a strong and supportive family so Im sure hell get through it with our help.
I just cant imagine facing the rest of my life without her. Im 33 and it just feels far to young to have to say goodbye. DD is 10 and I know how much Mum loved her and how proud she was. What upsets me the most is that she wont see DS grow up. I tell myself she is watching over us now, which brings a little comfort.
So, this is why Ive not been around much lately, and maybe wont for a little while longer. Its nice to see how youre all doing though. Look after yourselves. DS is doing well. Started putting weight on well with formula at 4mths. Loves his sloppy food now and is sitting up well and pushing himself around on his tummy. He has a beautiful smile, two little teeth and huge blue eyes.
Thanks for listening! Youre all stars!
Ladybird xx
