I was terrified beyond belief, after around 20 weeks, I thought about it every day, sat crying, had moments of sheer terror where I would burst into tears and sob for hours...it was awful. People used to say towards the end "are you excited" and i would answer "no, I am terrified", then burst into tears (very embarrassing for both me and the person who asked me!!!
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I was 12 days overdue and the extra waiting was torture, I just wanted to hide under the duvet every morning and stay there!! My favourite saying was "Stop the bus, I am getting off"
When I did go in to be induced, I was so amazed at how calm I was, it was like a bizarre dream-I couldnt believe it was finally happening!! After 24 hours on induction ward, they came to get me for labour ward-the midwife said "Come on, lets go have this baby"
I freaked, grabbed the bed and started sobbing, wailing to OH "I cant do this, I am so scared, I want to go home...." He had to practically carry me down to the ward but the moment I was hooked to the drip to speed things up, I was so focused and relaxed and calm. OH and midwife could not believe it!!! I was lucky as I didnt really feel any pain-baby was back to back to it was all back ache, couldnt feel contractions, even though we could see them on the monitor. Even after 9 hours on drip, once they said induction had failed and I was being taken for c section, I was so relieved it was all nearly over-and loved the whole experience!!!
Put your trust in yourself and your baby...try not to be scared sweetie, honestly it is such a fantastic experience, you will be a star, I am sure xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx