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[hayley_17]

heya everyone... soz 2 moan again... just havin a real bad day n keep crying!

i was sorting through the old stuff in my room when i noticed i had a box which was all selotaped together. i had a bad feeling that i shouldn't open it but i did anyways... it was just full of pictures and random things of my ex. i just sat there looking at pictures of us together from the 'good times' we had and i just cried and cried

our relationship wasnt great but we did have a few good times and no matter how much i want to hate him 4 not being involved in this lil mans life... i feel awful because i still have so many feelings for him
i cant talk 2 my friends about it... they just think im bein stupid and should forget him... i wish it was that simple... i have his baby inside me.

my gran and her friend have been here since last week, my mum and dad went away this morning till wednesday cuz its my mums birthday 2moz. i just really wanted her 2 be there... i feel so awful and everytime i think about them i just cry. my gran and her friend are both quite old and its like they are small children, i have to watch what they are doin all the time. my little sister tries 2 help and i am grateful 4 that... & then theres my dog... hes like a baby himself. everything just seems to be getting on top of me... and this thing with the photos has just made me feel so much worse.

i feel so stupid and angry at myself 4 caring 4 him... hes done nothing but treat me bad and he just left me and his baby alone. sorry 4 moaning again... just needed 2 get it off my chest... and i dont have anyone who i can really talk to

hope everyone is ok...

hayley xx

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

i know how u feel, ihate garry but i also love, just learning to stay far away lol!!!

i have been very emotional to! B is still ill and now i have got a cold and feel like crap lol, and everything is getting on top of me

if u need to tlk hun im on msn or email me loves ya

 

[amyknight88]

hayley i think your in need of a big hug girl! *HUGZ*

i know exactly how you feel you hate him for the way hes acting but you feel like you cant hate him because hes the father of your baby. no matter how much of an arsehole he is he is still LO's dad and nothing can change that so your entitled to still care about him.

im not going to tell you to try and forget about him because that would be stupid to say,it is hard to go through pregnancy without your OH but when they wont get involved what else can we do?

How come your grans came when your parents are going away?

Youve been there for me hun so if you ever need to cry or moan youve got my number.

Love ya x

 

[hayley_17]

thanks girlies i feel a whole lot better now... i went for a long walk 2day and cleared my head!

i dnt even no if it wud be easier 4 me if he was involved... i hate him bt i still think about him alot and do still care about him. yeh i no wot u mean... they make babies then deny they are theirs and completley dont even give them a 2nd thought.

my gran and her friend came about a week ago and its my mums birthday 2moz so as a surprise my dad took her away 4 a cuple of days to this reali nice place in germany. its drivin me crazy havin them here but they are going soon so not long now!!

thanks 4 everything both of u!! dno wot id do without you girlies on here i hope ur feeling better now aswell sarah... and i hope B is feeling better... must be awful him being ill and not bein able to do anything. i bet having the stress from garry and his mum about the christening hasnt helped you. keep smiling both of ya

thanks again love ya xxxx

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

im glad ur feeling better babes

i feel awful lol and B has beaten his record he went to the toilet (poops) 13 times today he can not have nething left lol

 

[hayley_17]

aww hun im sorry u and B are still not feeling great. i really hope u both feel better soon... are you takin him 2 the docs or anything??

bless him i hope you both feel better soon

xx

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

i was going to take him today but he has stated eating and has only been twice so thought it would be ok if he starts up again tomoz ill take him then

i still feel awful tho LOL

 

[*saulino*]

Hi

Sorry your feeling so aweful, i dont know your situation cuz Bernie has been here with me this whole time but i really give you girls credit ive said this lots biut will say it again your excelllent moms and soon to be moms too and your babies are lucky to have you its better to have one good parent there for them , then have a negetive influence on them.
Hope you keep your chin up everything will work out.
Sarah sorry your still ill im sick too must be somthing that going around this crummy world of ours lol.
hope you and B get better (wow 13 poops that is alot )
xxxxxKatrina

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

that is 13 nappy changes on at least four of them they carried on coming when the nappie was off YUK YUK YUK

 

[hayley_17]

heya... thanks katrina its great that you and kiara have bernie.. he sounds like a great guy!

sarah i hope ur feelin better soon... n i hope B is better 2day. i dont feel well 2day... quite ill... its awful!!

 

[amyknight88]

Awww bless you both! *hugs*

ooh srah i hate it when you take there nappy off and the pooh keeps coming. i think carey likes to save a little bit for when hes got a new nappy on

How come we never catch each other on msn!! lol

Love amy xx

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

i know n i dont like to text u incase ur dad reads the msg lol