Juice
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My cousin had a baby today. I was kind of dreading it happening because I knew it would make me feel sad. How selfish is that!! I feel so horrible. I am happy for her, of course! But I also feel jealous, bitter and sad.
We're not even that close and I hardly ever see her so I don't know why I'm that bothered. I guess just seeing my Nana's delighted face when we got the news (Nana was here at mine when she got the call) was heartbreaking because it was the same face she did when I told her I was pregnant.
Sigh! I can cope with emotions but this many at once - and so varying - is pretty difficult. I don't feel mature enough to deal with this sh*t!
We're not even that close and I hardly ever see her so I don't know why I'm that bothered. I guess just seeing my Nana's delighted face when we got the news (Nana was here at mine when she got the call) was heartbreaking because it was the same face she did when I told her I was pregnant.
Sigh! I can cope with emotions but this many at once - and so varying - is pretty difficult. I don't feel mature enough to deal with this sh*t!
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