Hi Girls,
Well Connor is just over a week old now and I just wondered, as a first time mum if what Im feeling is normal.
Basically until 3 weeks ago I was working full time, then up until a day before the birth I was mucking out my horse and trollying around in my car and suddenly - following an emergency C-Section - I have to practically sit around doing nothing.
MW told me off yesterday because she thinks I'm doing too much (like loading washing machine and going shopping) but I'm feeling pretty good physically and OH is being fantastic and helping me out loads.
I had the baby blues big time four days after the birth - sat there crying all day and trying to work out when I got back to work in September how I'm going to fit in looking after my horse, getting Connor to nursery, working a full day etc. I have loads of people around to help me but I feel like it's all my responsibility.
Also OH is probably going to Basrah for four months in June which is also scaring me and I keep crying about this as well because he's not going to be around.
Am I being too hard on myself too soon? My milk still isn't satisfying my son and we're having to bottle-feed to supplement it which makes me feel like a bit of a failure too. Also cannot drive because of C-Section - I feel like I'm mourning my loss of freedom and that I'm not really enjoying my baby when I should be.
Any advice - I'm usually such an organised, busy person and this is just not me!!!
Well Connor is just over a week old now and I just wondered, as a first time mum if what Im feeling is normal.
Basically until 3 weeks ago I was working full time, then up until a day before the birth I was mucking out my horse and trollying around in my car and suddenly - following an emergency C-Section - I have to practically sit around doing nothing.
MW told me off yesterday because she thinks I'm doing too much (like loading washing machine and going shopping) but I'm feeling pretty good physically and OH is being fantastic and helping me out loads.
I had the baby blues big time four days after the birth - sat there crying all day and trying to work out when I got back to work in September how I'm going to fit in looking after my horse, getting Connor to nursery, working a full day etc. I have loads of people around to help me but I feel like it's all my responsibility.
Also OH is probably going to Basrah for four months in June which is also scaring me and I keep crying about this as well because he's not going to be around.
Am I being too hard on myself too soon? My milk still isn't satisfying my son and we're having to bottle-feed to supplement it which makes me feel like a bit of a failure too. Also cannot drive because of C-Section - I feel like I'm mourning my loss of freedom and that I'm not really enjoying my baby when I should be.
Any advice - I'm usually such an organised, busy person and this is just not me!!!