catswiskers
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he was born at 26weeks by emergency c section as my placenta ruptured causing me to bleed heavily. It starved joey of oxygen and caused him to have a massive bleed on the brain. He passed away at 6 days old.
his funeral was last Tues. Its the worse feeling in the world and I 100% blame myself! I smoked during pregnancy and with 3 other kids to look after I didn't give myself 5 mins to sit down and rest.
why did I carry on smoking!!!!!! I'm a fool!!
some days I feel like I'm coping and other days I feel numb with grief. All I've got left of my baby are his ashes which are in the living room by the tv so he can be with us all the time.
I get fed up people staring at me as if to say a few weeks ago she had a big bump and now she hasn't but she doesn't seem to have a baby either. I feeling like saying stop looking at me if you must know my son died. Sorry for the rant but I haven't yet spoke to anyone in my situation x
his funeral was last Tues. Its the worse feeling in the world and I 100% blame myself! I smoked during pregnancy and with 3 other kids to look after I didn't give myself 5 mins to sit down and rest.
why did I carry on smoking!!!!!! I'm a fool!!
some days I feel like I'm coping and other days I feel numb with grief. All I've got left of my baby are his ashes which are in the living room by the tv so he can be with us all the time.
I get fed up people staring at me as if to say a few weeks ago she had a big bump and now she hasn't but she doesn't seem to have a baby either. I feeling like saying stop looking at me if you must know my son died. Sorry for the rant but I haven't yet spoke to anyone in my situation x