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[LucyAnn]

Hi Everyone!

I found out I was pregnant on Saturday 12th just gone wow im full of shock, excitement and worry!

Basically I have been on 'the pill' for years! I am 23 and just got Engaged to the love of my life Jon 3 weeks ago (which i'm still in shock from )

We had to take 4 CLEARBLUE tests till we believed we were pregnant! first one was blank and the next 3 were 5+ weeks!!!

So on Tuesday 15th We saw a Midwife and have arranged our first appointment 2nd march for possible scan and to recieve more info and plan tests and things!

Now odly enough for the last month I had been feeling bloated think 'oh my stomach will go down tomorro' lol HOW NIAVE! haha!

And the only reason we took a test originally was because on the friday I had been sick at work and for some reason every thought 'mmm sick once = pregnant!' so yes we got paranoid and to our shock they are right!

Now although this baby was unexpected we are definatly keeping him / her.

Things just feel all over the place we are currently buying my fiances moms house - mortgage and selling our flat and we are having an engagement party in april, then I had a little crash in my car early this week on ice and so on! I work in quite a target driven job and feel like millions of things are all over the place!

The main concern I have is i was on medication for insomnia - which midwife assures us wont have affected baby I am just concerned now i cant take my medication i cant sleep :'( been having 1-2 hours per night this week and it makes me very crabby and need a solution i get so mad when i cant sleep, irritable and for the first time ever me and Jon Had a little Spat!

Im just finding it all quite difficult. I think i'm very very scared I really am, me and Jon had started talking dates for weddings holidays together goals in life etc and i'm so scared for any effect on US as a couple. I understand some things are going to be re-schedueled and put back or put off he has assured me at our earliest will will get married im just paranoid that if there is any doubt even the tiniest he doesnt want this baby there could be conflict in the future?!?! He has said how much he loves me and says as we both understand if we were planning then we would have waited till after wedding etc and he says when he thinks about it it makes him so happy and it feels perfect and its all he wanted etc!

im just full on nervousness irritablity and everything at the moment I have suffered with panic disorder in the past and currently have a sleeping disorder im just so scared i am not strong enough


Everytime i get irritable i start questioning are we doing the right thing and I actually said to Jon last night 'it's not fair bringing a child into our lives when I could suffer healthwise, when the babys health could be affected if im not sleeping etc' regret saying it but i do really believe i could end up not coping with everything feel so so weak.

We are really excited to find out how far gone - test said 5 weeks+ because thats the maximum it can judge time wise, midwife said she didnt think we were over 3 months as she could tell by feeling my stomach & the only guide we are using is that I was on antibiotics mid December .........

I know its a super long post - feel alittle better actually writing this down and would appreciate anyone saying hello and even any advice

Lucy
xxxxxx

 

[kat060287]

First of all congratulations I think to be honest most of what you have said will be the start of your emotions going up and down. I exactly the same when i found out you think of every little thing and think the worse. But yas have just got engaged and now your expecting what an amazing little surprise for you both
Hope all goes well xxx
P.s. about the sleeping hopefully with the first few months making you extremely tired it might just balance its self out xxx

 

[LucyAnn]

Thank you for lovely message! I know everything is crazy all over the place at the minute but in a fantastic way
I hope to think my sleeping calms down might post a thread purely for advice on that as the medication I have been reliant on for years I can take now and im struggling to keep awake at work! tired.com! xx

 

[kat060287]

I think more than ever now it should settle but yeah post a thread just on that am sure others have had a similar experince. Good Luck xXx

 

[LucyAnn]

Thank you Kat I hope so xx